i love you!

fight.

Yes, what i've done wasn't of the principle that you have. and it's something i have to and must change.

but what i heard and found out, breaks me even more.

I've spent time talking things out and through, couldn't sleep cuz i know the gravity of the situation but how you put it across hurt me more than anything else could. What's more the stuff i found out, im the cat- curiosity kills the cat.

You said that you hope i thought things through, i just couldn't tell you how much i thought everything that you dont know that i know through as well... So much so deep so tired i was that slowly as the fatigue set in, the less impt ones faded away... i believe those that were left behind is what the heart truly is telling you...

it doesn't matter cuz i dont think you read here anymore so it's really for me to rant and spill my heart's content out in general.

i dont think im thinking too much, but im totally shattered.

which way sld i pick myself up from?

to me, the future matters more and that is what im inclined to go with.... but it doesn't deny me that i wouldn't think of things in the past. i promised that i wouldn't see you in different light since to me, the past is the past.

The future is what matters more.

That is what i believe in. and yes, i have so high a tolerance that many are amazed by it. to have tolerance for such shit that falls upon me. But hey, if you are worth it, why not?

i guess that's what you feel too.... with everything in retrospect, every situation is different and i can never compare apple to pear, how pear is to mango. even when they are fruits, matter of fact.

i feel as confused and uncertain, im trying to digest and keep myself together to get everything right in my mind to move on right: if im not supposed to do things, i better not do it. i shouldn't test boundaries and let anyone feel that they don't matter to me/ taken for granted.

i feel obligated and suffocated at the same time. i just need to think. properly. right. through.

maybe like what J said: don't think so much, just be a good girl and behave.

period.

如果一個男人真的愛妳

如果一個男人真的愛妳，他冷落妳不會超過三天，
因為想念妳的日子很難度過 ........

如果一個男人真的愛妳，他會給妳一個甜蜜的稱呼，
只屬於他一個人喊的稱呼⋯⋯ ......

如果一個男人真的愛妳，會令你溶入他的生活，
決不會相愛多年後，還讓妳妾身未明 ......

如果一個男人真的愛妳，他會把妳當孩子般寵愛，
但是自己又說不出寵妳的原因…

如果一個男人真的愛妳，他會讓妳開心快樂，
捨不得讓妳流淚 ..

如果一個男人真的愛妳，他的手機會24小時為妳開機，
隨時隨地讓妳能夠找到他 .....

如果一個男人真的愛妳，他會覺得妳是最好的，
不會將妳和其他女人做比較，即便妳並不優秀 ......

如果一個男人真的愛妳，他會抽出時間來陪妳，
即使自己真的很忙，因為他看不見妳會很想妳.....

如果一個男人真的愛妳，他不會要求妳減肥，
因為他把妳的身體健康看作第一位 .........

如果一個男人真的愛妳，他會很想和妳生活在一起，
會把妳看成是生命中最重要的 .....

如果一個男人真的愛妳，他會經常緊緊地抱著妳，
讓妳感受他的心跳 .......

如果一個男人真的愛妳，他會在妳睡著的時候輕輕吻妳，
因為妳是他的天使 .......

如果一個男人真的愛妳，他會讓妳買妳喜歡的東西，
並且很高興陪妳逛街 ........

如果一個男人真的愛妳，他會對妳的家人、朋友都很好，
喜歡融入到他們當中 .......

如果一個男人真的愛妳，他會默默地為妳付出一切，
但很少讓妳知道他所做的犧牲 .......

如果一個男人真的愛妳，他會看妳吃飯的時候傻笑，
然後把好吃都留給妳吃…

如果一個男人愛妳，他會不厭其煩提醒妳吃飯，穿衣服，
聽妳說「煩了」，他還是要提醒妳，因為妳是他的一切

如果一個男人真的愛妳，他會記住妳說的每句話，
哪怕是一句小玩笑，他也會放心裏。
然後努力改變自己的生活習慣。

如果一個男人真的愛妳，在妳過馬路的時候會拉著妳的手，
怕妳橫衝直撞出什麼事，所以不要甩開他的手。

如果一個男人真的愛妳，他的手機裏都是關於妳的東西，
想妳的時候會對著手機傻笑，

妳是他最美好的幸福 ...

dear !!

suddenly feel so weird not having you around... and to think about how long i'll be without you around... feels a lil peculiar. but im gonna enjoy my family time and look forward to seeing you on monday night then...

till then,
love you!

i.love.you!

i.love.you.baby.

thankyouforeverythingthatyou'vedone!

imgoingofftocameronhighlandsinawhile, andi'mtypingthiswhilesittingonyourcouchwithc.s.i.onscreen. andyousleepingsoundly.

i'lluploadphotosoftheeventssoonwheni'mback. let'sgoxiaolongbaobuffetokay?

iwannatellyoualsothatit'slovelytohaveyouatsoccertraining. it'senjoyabletohaveyoureviewandteachmeonhowicanimprovemysoccerskills.

ravingrabbitswheni'mbacktoo. iwannatry!! (:

cyawheni'mbackonmondayweehoursinthemorning.

*muacks*

hopeyousawmyphotomessage!

<3

me

CALVIN!

yar, and the 2 posts "calvin bully me" and "again" are by calvin.

(read: calbin!)

bully me... =(

dq dq huh... don't ah...

>> World cup is getting more interesting with each match. now's the rounds of 16. Paraguay vs Japan. Went into 30mins extra time. if no one scores, then penalty shoot out. We all hope Japan wins though! =)

Cino.

Post dedicated to Cino.

R.I.P. Cino.

Adopted her slightly after new year... till 26th June 2010.

Pretty mommy... and her life...

Miss her so much. Can't really leave myself alone, else i get emo....

Cino and baby Coco. Borned 12 June 2010.

Exactly 2 weeks before Cino passed away.

Baby Coco and my mommy.

So cute eh?

Cino when she was pregnant,

when i put her outside as i clean her cage.

I love this photo of her.

Truly shows how pretty and gentle a soul she was.

And she was used as a mouse when she first stepped into my life.

By Calvin. =p