Reflects.

Now, being stuck at home down with fever and flu for the past days ain't really the best thing that can happen, esp after eventful Zoukout. Right. I stretched myself far too much for far too long. Late nights every single day without fail caused all around me esp my family to be worried.

Now that i'm recovering and recuperating, my fried brain cells are regenerating and i'm feeling slightly better.

Anw, 2008 hasn't been the best year for most. And instead of sharing why hasn't it been good for me, i'll recap why it's otherwise. (New year's resolutions shall be done soon... not in this post. Too much for the brain to handle. hurhur.)

- I met many people who changed my life.
- I've grown up within this year.
- I matured more than I ever did in the past; all the events made me so.
- I learnt and found my passion in dance once more.
- I see the importance of studying way in advance.
- I appreciate everything more than i'll ever will.
- I met you and fell in and out and lingered in love.
- Well, basically, i met you.

I wanna meet and catch up with those i haven't do so yet okay? Call me!
Oh, The Mr. Men Show is so cute! So colourful and cute charaters. I love cartoons. And jazz piano.
Oh, my house has been really windy. So cooling, rather chilled, that i can hardly do much without my blankie.

Wishlist!
*Dresses *Handbag *Chocolates *Movies *Eyeshadows *Ear studs *Books *Dior Addict 2 *Colourful stuff!

Merry Christmas to all in advance (;

Love, cherri.

Dances.

Dance dance dance...
take and sink me into a trance.
A sea of beautifuls
Shrink all worries into miniscule.

Social dancing has never been more enjoyable than before.
I see the beauty of swaying and timely moves to the music.
Observe how pretty and magnificant a swing of a hand can lead to a lovely move.
A small movement of one can lead to a consequence of the partner.

Latin dances amaze me even more; i appreciate all greater than before.
People tell me i've improved alot; there is alot to continue improving still!
Through Salsa, I've learnt alot- to love, to trust, to tolerate, to be patient, to smile, to live.
To indulge in the lovely beats, i've came to learn to forget other stuff for the nite.

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Oh how i wanna move on...
oh how i wanna stop certain period of time.
oh how i wanna tell you how much i miss you.
oh how i wanna tell you the irony and paradox... ...

I wanna tell so many different things to so many different individuals.
To each and every of you.
But more imptly, i wanna thank you all.
Cuz without each of you, my live will be different from what it is now.

lucky

Make me fall in love with you over and over again...

Will you?

They don't know how long it takes. Waiting for a love like this. Every time we say goodbye. I wish we had one more kiss. I'll wait for you I promise you, I will.


On a side note,
Singapore International Salsa Festival (SISF) held on 24th - 26th October 2008 at Downtown East was such a great event. I enjoyed myself alot despite the lethargic me. Workshops start at 0930 and end at 1700. Night party and performances start again at 2000 and end at 0300. Yes, it's crazy but fun kinda crazy. I din manage to stay till that late for the 3 nights. But i cant wait to attend next yr's (: yay. thanks for the lovely companionship.

reflection.

I'm lucky that i had a chance to have lived through times and moments tog with you. 'Cuz times with you were good while it lasted.

I know you're not doing well there too. Like me.
It's with or without you. It's like with or without me.

Someone once asked me "Do you think he'll be happier with you... or without you in his life?"
I really can't answer. I can't give an absolute answer. Cuz it takes two to clap. Cuz it is an obvious pain. And Mariah Carey's Bye Bye wrenches my heart whenever i listen to it on my pebble. Many a times i wanna tear. I wanna cry so hard that i hope tears can patch every pain that we're going through. But i know better that it wouldn't.

Holding back tears is probably one of the worst things to do. Like how saying bye bye is. I am reluctant to do so.

It's so difficult to type this, esp when im in the library and tears welled up, blinding my sight yet i dn wanna have my tears roll down. I'm a big girl now; i must think and act like one.

There are alot of questions in my mind now. But i know, focus on them will not help. Directing my energy on the positive stuff will.

It's challenging to make improvements- especially self-improvements. Cuz it means admitting that you're not perfect; that you have to go through thorough adjustments sometimes. But changes are necessities. No matter how tough it gonna be, i know i have to go through them... To be a better person, to be a stronger me and for all those around me too.

Through critisms and negative experiences, I have to brave through them all to see the rainbow. And maybe after then, i'll find the pot of gold. But i can't predict what the future is. But resolute i have to be. RESOLUTE. DISCIPLINED. RESPONSIBLE. I have to grow up even more. That i know.

But I only know one thing right now:
That i hope to see you happy. That you'll be truly happy.

I want to be there for you... But if it's tough for you, then i'll rather not. See i dislike such a dilemma.
Only time will tell... Just follow you heart...

With or without me.
With or without you.

contradictions.

Till then,
i'll be living in denial.
in self- deception.
in the grey.

rock is the new rnb.
pub is the new club.

Still, the heart falters.

life full of contradictions.
dammit.

< edit... as reviewed by weihong,
paradoxes of life it is instead.>

My Baby You

As i look into your eyes
i see all the reasons why
my life's worth a thousand skies

you're the simplest love i've known
and the purest one i'll own
know you'll never be alone

[chorus:]my baby you
are the reason i could fly
and 'cause of you
i don't have to wonder why
baby you
there's no more just getting by
you're the reason i feel so alive

though these words i say are true
they still fail to capture you
as mere words can only do

how do i explain that smile
and how it turns my world around
keeping my feet on the ground

[repeat chorus]

i will soothe you if you fall
i'll be right there if you call
you're my greatest love of all

[repeat chorus]

arianna i feel so alive

purple.

"You may be one person in the world,
but you mean the world to someone."

You'll never know...
how much you can influence a person's life.
Likewise, you'll not know how much a person is to you,
until you realize how much you miss him/ her.