outlet.

It's raining heavily outside and the light-headedness due to the lack of food and sleep is killing me gradually. Yet i switched my lappie on again after 5 mins after shut down.

I had to have my outlet. I've been blog surfing and i concluded that my life isn't bad. It's once in a while that i feel such empathy for those really more unfortunate than me. Ironically, I must admit that i've been through qt a bit for a 21 years old. I wasn't quite borned with a silver spoon in my mouth as i was pretty independent in my younger years- i packed my own schoolbags, tied my own shoelaces, etc. But I am well aware that I've been pampered for I don't have to wash and iron my clothes and have dinner prepared too (though i can survive with my own cooking).

Anw, there is no happily ever after fairy tale; no one perfect family. I have my fair share. I guess compared to some, being the eldest, I grew up relatively earlier and faster than others. I share the adult world- actions and thinking likewise- rather early. Forced to grow up? Maybe. I wouldn't say it is all bad but sometimes, ignorance is a bliss. 

Admittedly, my life has been pretty sheltered- caring parents, protective dad and concerned mom. That is until i stepped into university and into the working world. I see different perspectives, met many of different walks of life, have more responsibilities. I had more fun yet i had more pain. I had more laughters and smiles yet i had more headaches and tears.

You will definitely share my view on this: We all have things that we do not wanna share no matter how open or extroverted we are.

Day in and out, I think. And sometimes, too much of my own good. Insomnia is a rather serious thing. I just get restless and can't fall asleep as my usual. I rmb tossing and turning and have to psycho myself to relax and let go of what i'm thinking in order to get my rest. (i sound like a nut case now =\ )

Actions actions actions! I worry more than solutions. Rarr. And that is sth i have to improve quickly. Decisive too!

Life is about experiences- be it good or bad. I believe what we draw from them are lessons and we should learn from them all to improve ourselves. That is most important.

Anw, my head is throbbing crazily now. I should turn in since i'm feeling better inside. good morning world.

cherri~