ilovemydance&whitecoffee

Heya all,

my lappy's main/ mother board spoilt. So, coming online has taken real long. Like how many things in life have always set me thinking; adds on the experience- mostly not good, i guess. Listening to tracks, seeing things, going places and all brings back all the memories; sets me reminiscing what i've gone through- the people and activities.

Sometimes, i can't help but think, talk aka rant and become emo. To be upset is really worse off. Yes, i'm controlling it all. But at times, i kinda fail. It's for me to really learn. Cheeze.

My performance at zouk for the SIM UOL bash was alright, i guess. Especially the beginning- the 2 couples synchronised. Just slight hiccups at the end. But... Will continue to work hard and hopefully there will be more performances! =D Photos are still with my female co-dancer though. So none for the time being.

Photos are all over the place for now. Needa chase for them! =)

It's the xmas season and new year is around the corner. How time flies! More parties and gatherings! More music and food and photos galore. Best of all, the wonderful companies of friends! Yay.

Just went into and back from Malaysia for dinner and abit of shopping. =) But it wasn't really a pleasant one. Erm, sigh. Maybe the perfectionist me should take a slide when my sister comes into the picture. Sigh. Or is it her? Hmm... Ignorance is bliss??

Ah well, it's late. Tired yup. More post xmas shopping!! Breakfast with my ge. yeah. Nitez to the world. Cherri has to get up real early!

Merry Xmas (12 days of it! =D)

Love,
cherri

zoukout.

hey all...

Zoukout isn't like wad i think it is. It is actually pretty enjoyable. NO, wo bu shi huai hai zi (this i gotta quote peimun). It's just that being with friends made it fun and memorable. Esp with free flow of drinks. But aye, normal house pours. Well, who am i to complain? =) Esp when my friends aren't even Singtel customers who went to get the drinks meant for their customers only. Haha. Vodka red bull, vodka sth and bourbon coke. Trays and trays stacked up on the table. Drank to one's heart's content. Downed and downed glasses of them all. Approximately 8 guys and 3 girls. Vodka sprite never tasted that nice too. Non-gasy sprite is gd. =)

Camwhoring is pretty much THE thing in the early part. Heh. =) Fun fun fun.

And for God's sake, those on the papers were pretty much the extremes that happened. And NO, i wasn't one of those. (to the one who sarcastically told me off: it really pissed me off when u did that ok?! I'm not that lousy. *rolls eyes) That's why thank God for friends. Those that are trustworthy enough not to leave you in the lurch or leave your side!

And i think my lappy's mother board died. So servicing it goes. Well, later. Now using my sis's lappy. sigh!

Consolation to that? At least nothing will be lost. Cuz i din back-up my stuff!
Ayes, till then...

Something funny my friend said...

Me: acks...
Friend: hey, you missed out the 'mu'
Friend: in the front.
Me: >.<
Friend: yes no?
ME: Irony of word play~

omg. >.<"' *rolls eyes man. yahyah..haha.

alrighty. Cherri's tired. 3am now. Nitez world.

cherri~out

drive-thru.

And when i have the chance to drive out for supper/ coffee or tea or teh tarek session/ meet up and chit chat session, there isn't anyone to go with. Omg. =(

It's like a one in a million chance to use the car without super tight control. Cuz my dad went M'sia and mommy dearest is more relaxed on me using. Except the petrol, yes, it is expensive.

I wasted my day away by enjoying my tv and i. this relationship is really growing! i headed to orchard for half an hour only?! Get stuff and left. omg. Drove my mom to her office (she left her hp there) and then to tamp (for my sis to pass ez link card to her fren). And back home.

SaD. Friday night wasted. haha. it's been looooonggg...

Zoukout. probably its swansong facing the sea at Sentosa. Excited?

Sat morning econs lesson... then make-up POA lesson till 5pm. Kill me. it's like my thurs man! Full day!!

**Ge, i think we need the coffee session more than anyone!! =D yay come back fast!
**Yilin, have fun there in Taiwan! Kenneth, take gd care of her alrighty?

cherri, out

embarrassed.

MY episode.

This wk isn't MY week, i tell ya. Crazy wk.

Sunday- I fell aslp in the bus. on the way hm from supporting my friends who participated in the Standard Chartered marathon. All 42km! Great job guys! =) Oh, the thing is, i missed my stop. haha. all the way till the swimming pool!! Argh. First time.

Tues- the one and a half hour sitting in front of the customer service guy. boo. (read previous entry)

Wed- Talk about first times! Walked past my fren without realisation. Golden compass isn't that great. Nachos on me, cheese on him. haha. talk abt accident-prone me. Escalator; fell. strap broke. omg. talk abt paiseh. Took the car out; wrong turns! drifts; din slow down enuff- hump ahead! (suspension din spoil, fortunately!) one way street into carpark. thanks to that 2 guys man. teh tarek is nice! crazy guys screaming at the transvestites from my car! 12mn hm. felt lk cinderella >.<

Thurs- POA; fell aslp and jumped. muscle contractions?! lol. salsa- super off-form. my partner also blur from his MoS trip the night before. faintss. the best part? we've got less than 2 wks now till performance day! 20th 20th 20th... Oh, i was travelling to sch and suddenly i thought of the dance steps. Sequence. Still... Lousy la. hmph. im gg to start dream abt the dance steps. freaky.

ok, this is meant to be funny. but i really too embarrassed to phrase everything in proper sentences. Ahaha.

I wanna shopshopshopshopshop. So many things i wanna get. boo.
tired lil thing. i jus want happiness.

**zoukout, anyone?

cherri, out.

you.

Go away. you go away.
A 'hi' will kill. A "go ahead then" seems like pushing u away. I mean, i jus dn wanna hold up any of your or my time. Whichever.
Just go away then.

Spending one and a half hour in M1 isn't like the best thing. Restless me. Folding queue no. paper, looking around, figet. Luckily the guy serving me was nice to chat with. Even asked about zoukout and all. haha. Amiable person. He tried all means and ways to get my mms service working- re-typing the stuff into my phone, with his colleagues and checking the SE website and all. Yet nth worked. The last 15 mins, i took out Today and did sudoku. He was nice to lend me his dopod and i continued with my sudoku craze. ;) haha. despite eating into his lunch time (2pm plus alr!), the mms service din work out. I felt SO bad. But really, there wasn't anything i can do. I'm not a demanding customer. It's the phone that is irritating! =( So i dropped by SE customer service at Wisma. Jus gonna drop my hp tml before sch starts instead. 3hrs and warranty card for collection after lesson. I dno wad can they do with my phone. Maybe update the software or sth. But im a lil cynical abt it all. Service centres aren't really the most trustworthy place.

*update* Finally...dno how. But i did the SE support thing from the website and it worked!! YEaH!! No need to rush back and forth!! Yeah!! =D

We aim to achieve the impossible. That's wad it is, sometimes. Like how we like someone, yet we know it probably be close to never. Jus stating an example. Reminds me of the phrase- "You are next to impossible".

Alrighty. That's all for now.

cherri, out.

whee.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YA, YILIN!! =D

yay... hope u enjoyed urself. with dinner and present and the company.
Enjoy yourself today. =) loveya.

Will upload the photos when i get it from the bday girl.heh.

Reflection of myself. emo.
remember.. ya're worth so much more.

:D

Hello hello.

Standard chartered marathon 2007. Went to support friends of mine. Yay. Fastest of them all had a timing of 4hr 40mins. yes.

Yeah, this is a picture of those in the other marathons. Forgot to take one for those of the 42km.









Hmm... All i know was that i enjoyed myself this wkend. And thanks to many that i feel like this. =)


Happy bday Nana. =D
Hope you enjoyed the dine out and cake that mommy made. ;)
One big happy family. Except the last part- i couldn't park the car straight. =(
Nonetheless, driving is fun.


I dn wanna fall in love. Heard this song in Free's car on sat nite. Yes yes yes. I don't. Love is rubbish. I'm not being cynical and all. I'm jus thinking of what mess i put myself in. And really, the way to forget it all, is to escape. Detach. Run away. Don't think about it.

Mtg people is a normal thing. Mtg nice people is a subset of it. Wad say you all?
Sleepy sleepy me.

Love the cool wind at sub-dawn hours. It turns really chilly but very nice. Last Night.
[Diddy:]
Last night,
I couldn't even get an answer.
Tried to call,
But my pride wouldn't let me dial.
And I'm sitting here,
With this blank expression.
And the way I feel,
I wanna curl up like a child.
I know you can hear me
I know you can feel me
I can't live without you
God please make me better
I wish I wasn't the way I am

[Keyshia:]
If I told you once, I told you twice,
You can see it in my eyes.
I'm all cried out,
With nothing to say.
You're everything I wanted to be.
If you could only see,
Your heart belongs to me.
I love you so much, I'm yearning for your touch.
Come and set me free,
Forever yours I'll be,
Baby won't you come and take this pain away.

[Diddy:]
Last night,
I couldn't even get an answer.
Tried to call,
But my pride wouldn't let me dial.
And I'm sitting here,
With this blank expression.
And the way I feel,
I wanna curl up like a child.

[Keyshia:]
I need you,
And you need me.
This is so plain to see,
And I will never let you go and,
I will always love you so.
I will...
If you could only see,
Your heart belongs to me.
I love you so much, I'm yearning for your touch.
Come and set me free,
Forever yours I'll be,
Baby won't you come and take this pain away.

[Diddy:]
Last night,
I couldn't even get an answer.
Tried to call,
But my pride wouldn't let me dial.
And I'm sitting here,
With this blank expression.
And the way I feel,
I wanna curl up like a child.

[Diddy:]
Tell me the words to say,
To make you come back,
And work me like that.
And if it matters I'll rather stay home,
With you I'm never alone.
Don't want to wait till you're gone,
Let me be, just don't leave me.

[Diddy:]
Last night,
I couldn't even get an answer.
Tried to call,
But my pride wouldn't let me dial.
And I'm sitting here,
With this blank expression.
And the way I feel,
I wanna curl up like a child.

[Keyshia:]
I need you,
And you need me.
This is so plain to see,
And I will never let you go and,
I will always love you so.
I will...
If you could only see,
Your heart belongs to me.
I love you so much, I'm yearning for your touch.
Come and set me free,
Forever yours I'll be,
Baby won't you come and take my pain away.

[Diddy:]
Last night,
I couldn't even get an answer.
Tried to call,
But my pride wouldn't let me dial.
And I'm sitting here,
With this blank expression.
And the way I feel,
I wanna curl up like a child.

[Keyshia:]
I'm so alone I'm soooo lonely,
Why don't you pick the phone,
And dial up my number,
And call me a baby,
I'm waiting on you.
Why don't you pick the phone,
And dial up my number,
Just call me a baby,
I'm waiting on you.

Addict!!! LAST NIGHT LAST NIGHT. Crazy thing. yes. i'll say gdnite now instead. (read: Gd morning.) =D yay yay yay.

cherri~ out.

Tired!

Despite the two consecutive days of slp late- wake early regime... it's another day of drive for me! Yay. Mom drove to her office cuz i scared she'll be late! Then i took over and got my sis to clementi then to her sch before mine. After a whole day of academic then salsa performance prac, i drove to Le meridien hotel to pick my mom up. Ferried her classmate near hm before back to my place.

I turned wrongly at newton circle. Luckily with a stroke of luck and bravery, i managed to get to Orchard road from the back of Heeren. =D

Some infuriating events happened. Hate my phone to ring while i drive. Hate unreasonable people. Hate it (sometimes!) when my mom is ever-so-cautious! Those comments can kill the ears and brain cells! Hate those traffic jams. Hate it when the cars bully triangle- platers. Hate it when they beam at me. Hate it when my mom complains and comments so much!

So much hate. Ok, hate isn't the best word; too strong a word to use. I guess, it's more like dislike. =)

Alrights, i'm so slpy! oh... i'm stuck to built to last and orange county. Emo emo emo.

i hate it when i listen to songs and they remind me of ppl. It's like songs are attached to the ppl. Not a bad thing, it's just that... ... It's difficult to not remember people when you share a certain affinity with them- through songs. built to last...

i can read maps.

Thanks for all your comments. Sometimes, really difficult to slice everything up and life is just another game, isn't it?

Handball event's booth registration up. All morning to do preparations. Omg. Consolation? 1 confirmed group.

I had the privilege to drive the car today. Mom's office + School + Vivocity + mom's office + dinner @ geylang + Homesweethome = Tired me @ the end of the day. I got home without help of map, free. *shakes head*. I think i'm gd... seen sg enough to navigate around. Yes! xD

Yes, maps do help. Esp for Freesia today. ;) The power of the map. whhaha.

The trip to vivocity was fruitful. Drive there was therapeutic. Buys there were great- Got the shoes i searched for. Found (again) honey-coated macademia nuts from candy empire! After the mia for so long! Daiso's buys- candy and japanese red bean dessert for mommy. Eye feast everywhere else...

My mom was shocked when i told her that i was at Vivo. Hurhur. ;)
Traffic jam sucks.
PIE is long.
I think I'm a reckless driver.
Who said girls can't read maps?! I can!! =D
I prefer driving alone. Esp without mom and dad.
Driving in the day is so much safer for me.
Auto car makes driving a breeze.
I like the tune of Orange County by Stefy. *thanks free for searching*

Hope i can drive tml. lol. ;)

thinky.

"Love is
when you take away the feeling, passion and romance in a relationship...
and you still care for the person..."

Saw this on my fren's msn nick... wad're your comments on it?

I feel that this is pretty much the general love, like friends-love kinda love. So yes, looking it in that kinda light, it is so. Stripping the bgr kinda emotions attached to it. Then the above is truly the plain love. Nothing more.

P/S: "You" refer to different individuals. you know who.
*Hope you will enjoy tml nite!
*Wishing you a speedy recovery.
*Hope that things will be settled on your side quick. It hurts to be put on the line for so long.
*BBQ @ my place when?

fallen.

Just so you know....

Really want things to work out. But somethings it's better to keep at bay. Some others, in the short run is fine, but in the long run, when tolerance runs low, it's gonna break it all.

And before reaching there, maybe it's better to keep things all as it is now. Simple.

It's just me. Like it or not. Take it or leave it. Like you, i tried too. You weren't the only one.
Give and take. Yes, sometimes it's good to have reminders of how much one compromise.

Salsa performance practice was tiring yet fulfilling. =)

Right. That's all for now.

my wk.

hello!

City venture burnt my weekend. But yes, it was an experience. It's similar to amazing race. Gosh, how much i hate the big mealworms. Argh.

Suntan on fri with yilin and freesia was great. At least, i got tanned. And consolation to that is... City venture run didn't kill the tan. Muahaha.

Social dance was short. With only 5 people too. =( But recaps are gd. Always gd. =)

I drove out alone just now without my parents. yup. And the lucky person to be my first passenger is jun. Took TPE to Jln Kayu for a drink. Teh cino is much milkier than teh tarek. (Ge, this one has MUCH more condense milk than sempang bedok's!) Anw, took hougang road back.

Yup. Went out till a lil too late, so got into a lil trouble with my parents. Anw... They're concerned abt me. (read: the car.)

Ahaha.. okok, i know... anw anw anw... i SHOULD get some REAL studying done. It's BUGGING ME. Boo.

And yes... Driving fast alone is therapeutic. Of course, many will kill me for saying that. But it's really what i feel.

Cherri, out~

k.O

Omg... Talk about knock outs.

I think I'm the record holder for the most number of knock-outs a week! Once, i knocked out while snacking. WhoA! And it's muruku. crunchy crunchy thing! I knocked out again just now at 8+pm while watching Shall We Dance? Omg. It's so freaking early!! Probably due to the very filling dinner before the sofa. HmM.

Ok, or probably due to the day's activities- i had been taking the wheels. Not bad. Think it up-ed my parents' confidence. =) visited grandparents, ordered new sofa, bought DELicioUs bread and rabbits' necessities and visited jun. Before heading home. WhoA. Training on long distance driving. Talk about tiring!

Yes, i'm feeling better about it all. Not as pessimistic. Not that crappy anymore. Moodswings. Sigh. I'm still snappy me to some ppl- like my sis. It's habitual.

i'M still tired. Out.

spins.

And so what if i've got the govt license to drive on the road when my parents' license isn't approved yet?

Driving on the road has improved... But so did my standard... 1 to 2 more times with me should be ok

You still dn have the feel for the car... esp the right side...

I'm not worried abt you, but the people around...

How demoralizing. great. wanted to give up though i learnt alot in the last session. Hmm.
Stats starting later at 8.30. and here i am, still online at 2.50am.

I wanna take the car out for spins!

Drives

31 Oct-

That being Halloween and Terri's birthday, it was also the day of a milestone for me. I passed my tp on my first try!! I was so jittery and restless the day before due to the super tragic performance. Couldn't continue sleeping after i woke up 2hrs early. But come the warm up, i went numb. did alright but auto mode. The test was alright. Circuit was good. Never had been any better. But road was bad. Forgot to change to first gear twice at the zebra crossing. Got marked down tragically for that. And others too. But 14 points is alright, i guess. ;)

Went for my first spin that night. With mommy and sisters. =) drove them around the estate and kembangan, then to the expressway to toa payoh and turned down to paya lebar road where the driving centre is. Expressway + night isn't the best thing! Really dangerous. But i did my first vertical parking! Without poles feels weird. I managed, somehow.

Went for my second spin jus now. With my daddy. Went to the petrol kiosk then do parking. Both parallel and vertical. Between cars and free space, on the roadside and carpark. He still doesn't feel safe about letting the car to me. DaRn. Cuz of the parking la. Truth against truth, parking is tough in sg. Tight narrow space for the car. Yes, practice makes perfect.

Looking forward to my next spin. Hopefully it'll be tml! =D

Gonna tuck in now. Swim morning!

PS: Thank you all who have been really supportive! =D

My family: For being so supportive. Esp...
Sherri: Your comment "Whoa, jiejie drive very stable leh." It really made my day night. Thankyou. =D
Daddy+Mommy: Your lucky ang pow with me. ;)
Jun: For your mentos, for visiting me and food... and chewy mentos! And waiting with me for 2 and a half hours for the 1 and a half min. For celebrating with me at sakae sushi buffet stuffing. and dfs perfume smelling. and simply for just tolerating me =)
Kenny: For your wishes and encouragement, and triangle plates that came handy. yay.

macs

Fancy blogging in macs with this wireless@SG thing. lol. And sundae. Talk abt sundae, went for dinner with Yilin and Freesia last nite at the italian restaurant at the airport. Lasagne was good. Jus pricey. Had fries with mcflurry for dessert. Lol. Sat had dinner with family at Long beach to celebrate my sisters' bdays. But was a lousy dinner anw. sigh.

Feels pretty dumb. Anw, my batt isn't helping- 7mins left.

One and a half hr of driving jus now sucked. >.<>

7.15am once more tml. This time round in the circuit. Boo. Wednesday...!

Tues- 12.30am:
My comp went into hibernation jus now. Lol. Oh wells... My sister is one lucky ass. Gosh, fancy having a 390 bucks coach bag (discounted!) AND close to 2 grand dSLR. The green eye monster has caught me. =( Who wouldn't, then again? Talk about being pampered. MY bday ang pows were nothing near her presents. =( sob sob. And finally, my digicam will be back with me, after being misused, spoilt and "well" taken cared of, now being disposed off her "asset" list. Booooo!!

Rants rants rants... I'm full of rants. Too much to think of for this lil brain and frame. Relatively. Driving, work then dinner appt (oh, and the mgm that i am not able to attend =( ). Wed is the BIG thing. Omg. Pamela, Jun, Freesia, Hafiz and Huiyi. Soon to be Michelle and I. Yesyes? Oh great, here the ranting machine starts all over again. Oh, at least the trip up and down parkway wasn't wasted. Sherri liked her present. Heehee. *To whom this concerns: "So, idea for your next girlfren? ;)" Thanks for listening to my rants... and more rants. Getting things off the chest takes a LOOOOOOONG time.

Once more, the weather this morning was threatening... Din swim =( So SAD!! ArGh.

And, burning my wkends by running errands with mommy has burnt me out badly! i'm freaking tired out!! talk about lack of rest..and sleep!! And this is so not helping when it's 1.15am alr.

And what's with families and their new teles? HD TELES?! Mine's the sofa. hurhur. And soon, my new additional desk, hopefully! *evil laughter*

OH wells, gotta be up early. Will have to tuck in soon, after my bath. Muahahha. Love.

My 6am alarm.

Addicted to ice-cream. Having it EVERYDAY. Nearly every meal. Talk about sweet tooth. Perpetual. boo.

cherri~ out. Had this photo taken during a mtg. For some SRC stuff. Lol.

Busy days

And so, finally tried Fisherman's Wharf which is located opposite The Central. For those who still doesn't have a clue, it's at Clarke Quay.

Pretty interesting place to hang out in for a hot, humid mid-sunday afternoon. A plus point for a good company to chill out with! ;)

<- This is the cream dory and chips. The chips are cut from potatoes, not those pre-packed kind. The taste is lovely, more potato-ey. More importantly, the fish!- which is lovely. Dory fish has the creamy taste and soft texture. Goes well with the homemade tartar sauce they have. =D The flour they used to fry the fish with doesn't leave your mouth with the oily feeling. And the best is... the cream dory and chips/ fries + drinks is only $6.50. Reasonably priced for sth lovely. There are other fishes available at different prices. The stock-sth mash potato is tasty too. Buttery taste that i like. ;) Malt vinegar with the fish is a must, btw! whaha, Cherri's tip for those who likes the slight sour taste with it. Brings out the lovely smell of the fish, actually. hee. =D I'm gg back for more MORE.

Talk abt fish.. Butter salmon is nice. Hahah.. My style. ;)

Cherri's recommandation... Morinaga's milk caramel candy. whhaha. For a lil more than a dollar, the traditionally looking pack of candy is really nice. =D Used to be able to find it in Isetan @ Orchard. Not now. But available in the basement of The Central, in this jap shop. YummY yUmmY jap stuff! Whahaha.

And yes, 124+ 24 = 156. That's in MY answer book. Yes. "Why you go and times it?!" Free laughed out loud. Omg. faints. Matrix is like easy. Easy for me to get all careless, more like it! >.<>

TP is in a wk's time. Wow. That's pretty fast, isn't it? ;) And i striked a kerb in the crank course. Sth new. Hmm. Places i wanna drive to. Hee. =) Let's see... Supper drives, taking frens for spins, midnight breathers, fishery port.

Oh wells. Pbf test wasn't THAT bad. NPV, IRR and theory part. Aiyah.

Ice cream and simpsons is a great combi too. ;)

Sisters' bday dinner this sat. So is e sports dept outing @ sentosa. And swimming. Soon to be my new habit. Yay.

A photo of Terri and I... Went out for dinner with mom and dad after picking my dad up from the airport. ;)

She doesn't look older than I, does she? Cuz i get that qt alot. Acks.
Alrights.

Cherri, out~

deathjob.

I fell. Lucky for the girls' support. Or I'll be on my butt. Gosh, thanks to my boss. Salsa... Death job. Cool stuff yup. hurhur.

Lunch @ Fish n Co. with my buddy, Kaiyan. Seafood Platter, garden salad, soup and mussels! Wheeeee!! =D

Food galore! HAHAHA... Sat was bbq @ my cousin's. GOSH. Yummy! Good food, my mom's lovely good food. Sunday had prawns. Today too. Hurhur. ;)

My week started off real bad... Family prob... Sigh. But thanks to the support, Jun. =)

Busy week ahead... yup... Drivin drivin... =)

BleAhx.

Driving sucks for now.
What else can i say?


Handball was fun. Serene centre is pretty empty. Island creamery's banana split is nice.

Time spent with ppl i love... i care... Thank you.

Some photos to offset the past lousy days...

The twist that spoilt my photo. redhairband. xD and the ice cream.

The cherri with the cherry.
(from the black forest cake. >.<)

Pretty tired out now. 2.30am. crap. music, chatting, poa is gd. nahx...jus poa to figure out.
=(

Flashbacks

Flashbacks, we all have...

There are things we wanna share, yet flashbacks are memories that belong to us solely. It's just a matter whether we wanna share with others only.

Flashbacks and memories have pleasant and unpleasant ones. Most of the time, it's whether we wanna get engrossed thinking about them all. They make us smile, inevitably, they make us cry or yearn too. Reminiscence- we think back- makes us smile for they did happen to make us strongerand for us to learn our lessons. Yet more importantly, makes us who we are now. It's really a part of growing up and getting wiser.

Maybe the flashbacks ARE holding me back, preventing me from moving forward and it's the wall that i have around me. Preventing me from getting hurt. Sheltering me from the evil world out there. I wanna move on too. But reservations there are. It is comforting to know there are many who care for me. One more better than one less. Emotional baggage? Maybe. I can't seem to see far. Perhaps it's just that I don't dare to anymore. I really don't know at times what matters to me. There isn't any other way to put across in this state of mine now. Lack of sleep doesn't help either.

You asked if i have any expectation out of this. I can only tell you, I don't; I try not to. I probably took the extreme lesson from my past- not to have any expectations. Other than one. And that is happiness- For myself, for those around me. Priority is what we have in difference. Thinks- Friends vs family. Friends vs acquaintances. Me vs you.

I wanna be carefree; be happy; be worry-free. That's about all. Oh, and to pass my TP! And to pass maths test later. To have my tuition kids do well. To have everything run smoothly in council work and my roadshow work. To have you all reading this, happy!

Learns...

I learnt today...

Tough times don't last, tough men do!

What doesn't kill you, can only make you stronger.

Today isn't my day. Well, sleeping late and waking early isn't the best combination one can start her day with. Circuit driving was lousy. School was incomprehensivable. Tuition lessons were torturous. The kids don't seem to wanna attend lesson, while the parents are just concerned and worried.

Burning my weekends for them too. Sat AND Sun.

Looking forward to Salsa later... To zouk on fri... To Chinatown and celebration. Sweet...
Oh, to cousin's bbq on the 13th.

Not looking forward to waking up zombified to teach on sat morning, back to back tuition session. Good gracious. Oh, and fri's maths test. Esp when i'm not prepared.

I want my chocolate... but 1 month, that's all i give.

Needa study soon!! But i can't seem to find the time. CRAP.

Jun: Thanks for the company.
Kenny: Thanks for the always quotable you. Please don't get too emo at times. Cheers =)

Right... Always restless me... okok...

Cherri, out~

thinks.

We take our steps forward. then backward.
Reservations. Emotional holdbacks.
Flashbacks. Cut-off from all others- my flashbacks. my past. my memories. Jus mine.
It's difficult to totally trust again. Like totally entirely.

For one more day... ...

Ice-creams... chocolates... yum.
Circuit: S- course, crank course, slope and directional change. I detest the slope.
Salsa is getting more fun each lesson. Shines... Susie cue... basics... turns... spins... twirls~

Jun: Grats on getting your license on ur first attempt! =D Sunday yup.
Alex: Thanks RaRr... MEow. Thanks for care n concern. Really appreciate it.
Free: One more week till your first attempt in driving. Pass!! xD
Yilin: Friday nite fever! WheE!! You, free n i~ =) Sorry, can't have dinner with you girls. I'm packed this week. REally packed~! next wk! =)
Kaiyan: Buddy! Maybe Sat can catch up with u, if no one (*winks* hints) wanna book me oki?
Kenny: Thanks for your book... Saw your lil card. you, me... thanks. You are special too. =)
Daddy: Congrats to ur lucky no.! Yay!! =)

1st oct

It's the 1st October. Some special days we all share on this very special date.

It's Childrens' Day! 20 years old isn't too old. Neither is it young to celebrate this occasion. Bleahx.

It's a special number that a close friendship is attached to. =)

It's a lovely day to start my first circuit driving on. Hurhur.

That's to start my day on a bright side. Whee!! Tutoring a sec 2 kid isn't that bad. Looking forward to my extra salsa practice after tuition. =D Yay.

PSLE starts on wed, 3rd oct. eeee... oh well. =(

Library is a conducive place to SLEEP in, especially for sleepy me to doze off in. Boo.

Cold, ice princess. Me dao? Me unfriendly-looking?? Hurhur. Hard to believe? Tell me!

I'm okay...

It's comforting to know that i've got ppl concern about me. Thank you all.

I'm fine. It's just that life isn't the way it sld be. Crap.

I'm alright. =)

nothin

i feel like dying. i feel like crying. i feel like the world has no more happiness. i feel like no more smiles can ever exist on my face. i feel like love will never be. i feel like i will never be happy again. i feel like every thing is numb. i feel like everyone is killing me. i feel like nothing will ever make me happy. i feel like there will never be sunrise again. i feel like there can never be something called beautiful. i feel like you never existed. i feel like there can never be a rainbow in the sky again. i feel that the stars will never twinkle again. i feel like everything is a dread. i feel like 'trust' will never be in my dictionary. i feel like i can never have the upbeat in me. i feel like i will never open my eyes when i fall asleep. i feel like dreams never come true. i feel like dread is always the word. i feel like a hiatus never will work. i feel like i should not have taken a wrong step. i feel like you can never be there again. i feel like, i feel like, i feel like dying.

lately...

Many events occurred. Too many to talk about, even to freesia. But to summarize the emotion roller coaster:

Pleasant, unpleasant ones. They're a test of friendship, a test of determination, a test of my readings, a test of maturity. Yet, in the end, through the laughters and tears, we seek comfort in our comfort zone. And to step out of it is difficult, we know.

Trusting someone and having yourself backstabbed isn't really the way it works. But hey, after the tears and talks, i see the bigger picture. I want to trust like how i used to but even girls are not that simple as they seemed.

See, i always learnt lessons the hard way. Ultimately, I still do. The emotional scarrings are fading yet impressions will always be left there. Of how hurt I was. And being there for me when i'm at my lowest helps. thanks. It's for me to step out of my old self. To be able to trust again. After those pain inflicted. Give me time. Also, see if i'm worth the wait.

I don't say stuff that I don't mean it. Even when it's jokingly. If i can bring my msg across, yes, i still mean it. So don't expect me to say stuff that will become a lie or even half truth when it's really serious. Sigh, know me enough now?

After those traumatic commotions, it's time to really sit and reflect. Give myself time.

I've not done myself a favour. I desperately need to start doing work and study. Thinking of investing in reference books. Aye, maybe photocopying works the same. Just that my pocket will be happier. Hurhur. I'm lagging far behind than i ever know. Sucks big time. BIG TIME. To settle every other aspects of my life, I did. Now, it's time for just me.

And after the first week of October, I'm gonna be a much "freer" person. Time to really breathe. Teaching gets tiring at times.

Time to reflect.
Time to feel my inner self.
Time to dance.
Time to be myself right.
Time to be free.
Time to do stuff that i enjoy.
Time to learn new stuff.

Oh, I've completed elementary 1 of Salsa. Next, elementary 2! YEAH. I love it. Dig it. Whoo! Steps are so cool. Twirls are lovely. Partnerwork is interesting.

basics... side steps... cumbia... triple steps... cross step... basic partnering position... cross leap... cross leap turns...

Can't ember the rest but sld be around there. groovy stuff!

Intend to invest in a pair of proper dance shoes if i'm continuing further. Think i should? ;)
No one reads here, right?





Time with my daddy. =D
Round stuff. heh.
But I love my daddy still.

and we say.

And i teared after so long.

And the hurt sets in. I knew I shouldn't have. But hugged i did.

My heart torned again. This time, maybe for long.

1 year, you said. On this very day in the autumn of 2008.

The place that hold meaning for only us both. 6pm you said. Dinner, it may.

And you teared in front of me. Yet, i did behind you.

Maybe time will fly by, maybe the world may end.

But time i wished to stop at that moment when you told me so.

Whisper seemed so loud like how subtle signs seemed obvious.

Only we know. Only we read each other's minds.

Like how we read books. Like open books.

ily. ilyt. Till then, we may...

And i died when you called me hopeless.

beautiful girls.

Sch's alright.

Realised how i haven't taken a photo in my lt yet... so...


It's Free and I before PBF lecture. =D

My godbro came to pick me up to visit jiejie and baby Ian. Lovely baby! =D
Dinner at LJS. Whahah... As promised ge, your photo!!

My lovely godbro.

Swensens' afternoon lunch deal... Auntie Annie's pretzels... Dinner zhi cha with yilin n freesia. Sat girls out with Carlyn. Next week no need to teach. I'm pretty free!! Yeah.

Don't understand some stuff in life. Guess what my dad said is pretty true. In life, there'll definitely be disappointments. Sigh, will you not be one of them again?

You're way too beautiful girl
That's why it'll never work
You'll have me suicidal, suicidal
When you say it's over
Damn all these beautiful girls
They only wanna do your dirt
They'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When they say it's over

Verse 1:
See it started at the park
Used to chill at the dark
Oh when you took my heart
That's when we fell apart
Cause we both thought
That love lasts forever (lasts forever)
They say we're too young
To get ourselves sprung
Oh we didn't care
We made it very clear
And they also said
That we couldn't last together (last together)

Refrain:
See it's very define, girl
One of a kind
But you mush up my mind
You walk to get declined
Oh Lord...
My baby is driving me crazy
(Repeat Chorus)

Verse 2:
It was back in '99
Watchin' movies all the time
Oh when I went away
For doin' my first crime
And I never thought
That we was gonna see each other (see each other)
And then I came out
Mami moved me down South
Oh I'm with my girl
Who I thought was my world
It came out to be
That she wasn't the girl for me (girl for me)
(Repeat Refrain and Chorus)

Verse 3:
Now we're fussin'
And now we're fightin'
Please tell me why
I'm feelin' slightin'
And I don't know
How to make it better (make it better)
You're datin' other guys
You're tellin' me lies
Oh I can't believe
What I'm seein' with my eyes
I'm losin' my mind
And I don't think it's clever (think it's clever)
You're way too beautiful girl
That's why it'll never work
You'll have me suicidal, suicidal, suicidal...

Suicidal... Suicidal...

laziness get the better of me

I'm sorry... Lazy to update at times. Life is different...

Alone.

Let's see...

On fri... Freesia and i went to Miss Clarity Cafe at Purvis Street for lunch! =D (thx Terri for directions)

Lovely food with lovely companion! =D

Drove. Taught. Gone MoS. Lest to mention the mega commotions later which I'm so unappreciative about.

The girls.

On sat, morning- Barely slept. Cabbed to Esplanade. 6km charity walk with mom & dad from the floating platform. MS Gloria Jean's new toffee drink is nice! Rained. Umbrella with mom. 328 katong laksa n nasi lemak. Home. Cabbed to vivocity. Tea parlour, wine exhibition n tasting then talk session with Salsa members. Fireworks at floating platform. Clarke quay's Macs for supper. Trained home. Talked. Slept.

Mommy, Daddy & the princess.

Sun- Early disturbance in morning. (sry to mention tt i was unappreciative for a disturbing start, kenny.) Taught. Valerie's home. Talked. Talked on the phone, light-hearted ending. Home. Family. Dined alone. =( Food. Snacked. Fruit tarts which caused me to cough again.

Mon- Tired. Late. Made my godbro waited for close to an hr! oops, sry ge! Changi village. Nasi lemak. Teh tarek. Biscuit. Changi terminal opp. Talk. Vivocity. Corduroy Candy. Chocolate factory. Candy empire. Jelly beans + Fox's yummy milk choco biscuits! =D Taught. Supper at simpang bedok. Talk. pc.

I wanna have macarons... yummy macarons... =(

Today... Slacker at home. I wanted to dye my hair. Put for too long... Now the colour is too light. Think my dad will make noise. Cuz i used to just highlight the strands. Streaks. Now's the whole head. Good golly.

I can't believe how irritating one can be. Sucker. I can't believe it. You alerted me how annoying I am. And how utterly obnoxious one can be. You, obnoxious. Yes. I know i am irritating. But annoying, you made me realised how drastic one can change. RarR.

Shades!

Went for try-out at therapeutic yoga. Not bad. =)

Lazy afternoon with Freesia. Still sick. Proven from the photos. =S Aching all over and swollen glands and all. ArgH.

At Orchard Road. Shades!!

My beef lasagne @ Pasta Cafe of Taka. Not bad.

@ Pasta Cafe.

I think it's the sucky lighting. >.<>

*Shrugs* I dno. ;) Still sick. Pale and all. Similar to bronchitis flu isn't sth to play around with. Sucks.

School's in tml. Party time after~ =)
Ciaos.

sick

Sweet lil' things in life.
Oh how i miss that life.
Where innocent minds we had
Uncomplexed they were.

Bronchitis flu. Body shut down. Slept the whole day off. And the nite off soon too.

I sleep.

nitez.

i found a reason... not.

Working is tiring. Falling aslp on the chair while thinking. >.<

Why doesn't anyone comment on my blog? So sad... =(

Am i too frank? Do i offend you ppl easily?

Oh I do believe
In all the things you say
What comes is better than what came before

And you'd better come come, come come to me
Better come come, come come to me
Better run, run run, run run to me
Better come

Oh I do believe
In all the things you say
What comes is better than what came before

And you'd better run run, run run to me
Better run, run run, run run to me
Better come, come come, come come to me
You'd better run

Melancholy, tears-rolling song. Touches my heart. What comes is better than what came before. Unsure. Drift. How far can i believe myself?

No Promises

It's kinda early now- 2.15am. Still gotta work tml! Visit me at parkway, baush & lomb roadshow. Contact lens, anyone? haha.

Sick i am. Seen the doc late last nite with my daddie. Sore throat, then fever, then flu. Diagnosis? Allegic irritation due to dry throat. Now mr sniffles is with me. *sniffs sniffs* *cough* Nonetheless, eventful today with lotsa travelling~

- POSB bank @ Bedok then Simei to do bank draft for UOL payment
- Tutor @ Tampines
- Driving @ Paya Lebar
- Buy new HP @ Tampines
- BBQ @ Yilin's place

See. =) Most photos are in the girls' hp. It was a lovely bbq. Short one, but nice to sit & catch up a lil despite our heavy commitments. =) This coming wk will be BUSY. Zouk on wed? Sat @ cheryl's? Sun annual BBQ @ cousins' place for bday celebration.

My new hp... The rose red one! So sleek & preeeetttttyyyy!! =D Exclusive to Singtel Customers only. Heh, used my mom's plan. See http://www.gsmarena.com/sony_ericsson_w660-pictures-1924.php

=D nice stuff. But camera is really disappointing! Compared to my old phone that i lost, this really sucks big time.

But, music rox. i miss portable music. i did sth real silly. I complained that e phone is soft, when the plastic is still over the speaker. whahaha!!

Hey baby, when we are together, doing things that we love.
Every time you're near I feel like I'm in heaven, feeling high.
I don't want to let go, girl.
I just need you to know girl.

I don't wanna run away, baby you're the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight,
I just wanna die in your arms

Here tonight
...
I don't wanna run away, I don't wanna be alone
No Promises
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, now and forever my love

No promises

No promises by Shayne Ward.
Like what I said, any girl can just melt if a hunk sings to her. On the condition of not being tone deaf. The words are so sweet. Melt like chocolate in chocolate fondue.

Sigh, but words are still words. As it goes, action speaks louder than words. A guy can say the most nectarine sweet heavenly words to swoon the girl head over heels for him. But dash, hopes may be. Sometimes, i really hope this isn't true. Cuz you seem so swt, but u're critical. No one likes that, I reckon.

So will anyone sing this and mean this all to me? =)
i WILL die in ur arms...

PS: Oh Freesia, u know i will to you ;) loveya babe.
And yilin + cheryl too. But you both have guys waiting for you presently.

NItez,
cherri

Salsa

And so, 3rd day of sch. Shopping alone is alright, despite the bore. =) Vivocity is great. All that i need is there. WheE~!

Salsa has it's origins from Africa, developed as it is more in Cuba.
Salsa is SeXy. =D

Learn the basics last nite. Front, back and side. Weight shifts as you step. That's why the butt moving. Seemed like it but it isn't on purpose. It's because of the weight shifting. >_<

SeXy~

Cherri

firstday

First day of school.

Tired. With Freesia & Michelle. Then Freesia & Valerie. Library. Bitching talk. =)

Home. Exhausted. Tml- Sch from 12 to 6.30pm. Salsa class at 1915 at Tanjong Pagar. =D

Chill~

Cherri

Welcome to my life. peace.

Welcome to my life.

A new chapter of my life opens
Unfolds new mysteries it brings

Yes, it did. And will continue to. I wanna post photos! But my diaryland blog doesn't allow much of freedom or rather, it is time-consuming to me to painstakingly upload photos. Resize, upload on photobucket then link url. Omg. So now, it'll be photos for all to view, esp myself. My memories. Am afraid of my STM. That my mind will fail me. Figments…

Anws, the past 2 weeks have been fun. Learnt alot, though some the hard way. Here're the events:

My 20th bday celebration @ MoS 210707-

It was a small thing, sadly. Ended up with Yilin and Kenneth, Cheryl, Freesia and Hongming. No classmates nor other friends who called to inform me that they are sick and could not make it.

Sad cuz that’s all the friends that I had! (Then I was feeling that way, really.) Glad cuz I knew that these are the people whom I can rely upon. They’re there with me and there for me.

Hmm, other than the whoo haass… Well, drunken stupor. Not quite cuz I was still pretty aware of my surrounding. Silly me to down my drinks so quickly. Shouldn’t have done that despite my unhappiness, really. 2 rums, 2 shots then downed 3 i-don’t-know-what with hongming. Thanks yeah, swtie. And yes, there I ended in the toilet with Cheryl who couldn’t do anything to help me (except hearing “gimme me a while more”s). So she called for Hongming’s help. I slammed my head onto the toilet floor therefore the huge bump on the right side. Lady security came in and tried to get me out but to no avail. So yeah, Hongming came and carried me out. Oops. So embarrassed still, wouldn’t you? I remembered being carried out to the pavement. Taken care of by everyone. Coat with that nice Armani scent. Then a lot of commotions too. And Kenneth thanking taxi uncle many times. Then home I was with my sis and the rest carried and accompanied me back. My mom made me green tea. Felt even worse as my stomach seemed to just gave up. Terrible it was. Therefore, I promised myself never to get myself drunk no matter how upset I am. Especially when the number of blue-blacks that I had was far more than I can have a in yr!

Later did I find out much more about the happenings when I woke up and had a conference with the girls and also Hongming in another call. Freesia was tipsy high and talked far too much, making all irritated. Angers. No eye to eyes. Bumps. Bills. Omg.

Sigh. I feel strongly that God wants me to pass my life’s lesson on; learn it the hard way but spread it along the good stuff; lesson learnt.

XFXNR meet-up & my 20th bday dinner with family 220707-

Met xfxnr in Tampines. Ended up talking at Century Square’s foodcourt, eating dessert. Oh, and BK for ziting who kindly shared her food with me. Hurhur. Thanks girls for the present and card. You’re such dear sweethearts! =D Thanks babes- Zi Ting, Fei Ting, Nash, Yuhanis and Pei Mun. We hardly meet up =( We will soon yup, if ya reading.

Had dinner with my family at a Siglap’s restaurant which my mom claimed to have very good crabs. So-so only. But thanks so much for everything! =) Ever caring and pampering parents, lovely sisters and nana! For the photos and nohohons. Back home, cut the cheesecake my mom baked for her lesson. Lovelyy! =) Ang baos + $500 hp subsidy + 24 donuts from donut factory~

My parents din scold or told me off abt being drunk and had my friends to get me home. My mom was worried, I know. My dad told me how and when to stop drinking. My sisters were caring. All the night’s commotion left me speechless. Yet a lesson learnt. Learnt well.

Daddy’s bday in advance 230707-

Happy 48th bday, daddy~ We love you lotsa!

Nice wallet from my mom, nice spongy cake and lovely family. =D


SIM Bash @ Butter Factory 240707-

Freesia and I met Yilin for dinner. And Hongming too as he wanted his coat back. Had jap food at Ministry of Food. Hmm, 3 girls sharing a salmon bento with the hotpot rice which was better than the one at Sun with Moon. Lovely dessert to finish off! Meanwhile, Hongming had this red bean and 2 of this mochi looking thing that I always have over at my neighbours, Auntie Gloria and Uncle Mas’s place, during new year. It’s a jap tradition. And yes, I had the privilege to eat these ceremonial stuff since young. Seldom see them now, so yup. I do miss them much. And their dog, Kuro. Back then, I was young and had so much fun tog. Eons ago.

Anw, Yilin left us at The Central, leaving freesia and I to walk to Robertson quay. When we reached there, we got a nasty shock! No one! As in, there’s only like 10 ppl?! And the best thing is it was already 9.30? The stated time was 7. Goodness. Anw, we waited for Michelle to arrive before depositing our stuff into the locker. Can’t believe it’s 2 bucks. Anw, we sat and waited till 11pm++ before hitting the dance floor. There wasn’t any movement before. Gosh. Got pulled up onto the dance platform. Down. Danced. Drank lousy tasting vodka lime. Got surrounded by guys. Got asked by guys. Then in the end, went for supper at River Valley Road. Prata. With this 2 guys. New friends of Michelle. Hhaha. But the guy was nice to send all of us home though it equated to half of Singapore. Manual car, sped off like bullet train. Nearly concuss in the car. But, was nice. Lol. Not nice, fun. Heh.


College Day + Freesia & I @ MoS 280707-

Regretted cabbing to school. Lol. It started at 12.30 instead of 12nn as stated. So “prompt”. Anw, was in school to receive colours award. Band; participated in syf and got gold in 2005. Speeches were good by Ms Lai and GOH. Set minds thinking on wad to do for the school since point intakes dropped drastically from 18 to 10 in 5 yrs. People getting in are smarter. Ended earlier than stated. Left before reception. Went home, bathed and changed and got out to meet Freesia. Ate taco bell at funan. Quesidillas. Walked back to Raffles City cuz I wanted to get organizer for school. Prints has nice stuff. Starbucks & camwhore + bitching. Ooh. Walked to Clarke Quay. Reaching a tad early, we combed the bazaar. MoS. Camwhores. =D Tried to take creative pics but failed terribly. God’s sake. Photos taken in the toilet turned out the best! (Yilin’s opinion included!)

Vodka lime didn’t taste good. Think Free’s Vodka cranberry was much better. Danced and got surrounded by guys. Came a pair of malay guys who came along to hi-5 with the guys. And we thought they were a group. Till the Chinese “ringleader” got us to choose. We were like “What the?! Choose WAD?!”. Gosh. And so, when free wanna get away from the malay guy, he held her even tighter, refusing to let her go. Omg. Meanwhile, I so wanted help. And help DID arrive. OH, freesia was rather SO annoyed cuz I was smsing still. Hurhur. To hongming. She boomed, “If you want, he can come! Just stop smsing already LA!!” Anw, so a familiar voice we heard “Hey girls” and yes. Help arrived! Thank God, thank God. No more yours or mine. Phew. Ok, I’m guilty. Whaha.

Dance was good. Funny, laughters, smiles, crazy, relaxed, let loose, hang out. Just my dear girl, Freesia and I. And Hongming being bodyguard most of the time. =)

And yes, to Freesia, I did learnt not to be so hard upon myself. I WANNA GO BACK AGAIN TOO. Love it. Thank you so much for shaking me out of my nonsense uptight self. And got me to loosen up and have fun. See, I promised and promise I kept. I did have fun. You both were great. =) love ya. You taught me to live life like it should (or shouldn’t? =P) Oh, is your wart virus thing better? YES YES, I did enjoy myself. Whaha, sat again? ;) Addicts.~

Aye, forgot, must work on Sunday.

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I love slping. I’ve been slping late, waking even later. Oh, I dno how to survive when sch starts. And I am so not looking forward to it~ Sigh. =P

And yes, photoshop is foreign to me. But it wun be now. =)

“I learn new things every day.”
And will continue to say.
To be happy, I will.
To look back at my life and smile. =D

010807-

At long last, done with photoshop. No editing of photos, just putting them tog. I like things the way they are- unedited. =)

Needa slp soon! Sch starts later at 12nn. Means, leaving home at 10.45am. Or i'll be late. Freak.

Ahahaha... =D cya.

Cherri