My weekend has been alright. Well, squeezing in IT fair in suntec on sat and today. kenny, calvin and i had dinner at kenny roger's at MS. corn muffin!! oh, i'll upload the photos soon. not at home with my cable yet. cheese macaroni and salad as sides. well, walking around, window shop and eye feasting on colours (: despite the crowd and cal's bad flu/ stuffy nose, it was niceeee lar.
Sleep was what i had indulged in. hahaha. "im sick, feel like shit" as quoted hahaa.
Went down to suntec (yes again!!) with cal and sisters. Lesser crowd than ytd and had buys (they bought stuff, not me =( ) well, dinner was good as well with cal's family at cafe oliv. im still sooo full. had sausage and snail and rosti. and dessert was nice too (:
Frankly, i can tolerate most nonsenses- jeering at me, teasing me and attitude me. Just couldn't take it when i have someone telling me that i hurt the person, say X. At this point, please refrain from reading if ya not in the mood for rants. You are warned.
Firstly, X is a good friend of mine. We've been through some tough times and had some good times talking and all. Anw, X msged me online, both messenger and fb and also sms. And X felt hurt cuz of what i did. For God's sake, good friends aren't determined by how much time we spent tog, but the quality and support we give one another. Quantity may mean that we drift apart. But really, that's not it. I may not be abel to spend as much time cuz of work and prelims and other factors but seriously, as a friend, you should understand. I really cannot take it when someone tell me such thing cuz i have no intention to hurt the person or whatsoever. Or however X put it. Cuz what can i gain from it? why do i wanna lose a friend? Seriously, give it a thought. I mean i went through some other ordeals to appreciate X more as a friend. But that's really just that. It doesn't dictate or determine or how X wanna measure up our friendship. Cuz that's superficial. I really don't really wanna give a thought about explaining sometimes, cuz i feel that i do not have to answer to X. Omfg. yes, that's how i think. i really don't have to report to you about my whereabouts and my doings. Even as concern a friend is, i really like my space. I don't like to get suffocated. Concern and care and however you put it, are not by such means. Omg. Even my own boyfriend doesn't do such thing. I really like to breathe as a friend. I will tell you what i wanna tell and i don't really have to get tied down in that way. I guess curiosity may get the better of a person huh. And in this case, maybe a friendship.
Tell me more why X feels that way... Rarr. Okay, maybe it's how i think and perceive things to be but c'mon. I know X is a good friend, someone who takes words and friendship really preciously, cuz X tells me that ALL the time. And emphasized. And drifted apart doesn't necessarily mean that we aren't good friends anymore, isn't it?! I cherished times i spent with people and X should really be glad that i went through those crazy ordeals to make me realise what kinda friends i should keep close to me. But no. That definitely isn't the case. And probably cuz i haven't kept him updated abt my life. Sigh. It sounds really contradicting now. But but but it makes sense. Good Lord. Now, i really don't wanna talk to him or settle things rarr but i know i have to cuz i know a friend who's just concerned. Probably over-concerned sometimes. Sigh.
Okay, i just needed an outlet to venge my anger and frustrations. Telling calvin all these may frustrate him as well. I'd rather keep it cool. I'll settle it well. Just as well. One lesser person in such negative light would be better. Sorry cal, it's nothing personal against you. It's just me. I wanna get this over and done with without you getting all worked up and worried. (maybe more of worried than worked up la).
tada. my blog full of rants. =p
cherri~
LATER...
Well, after playing maplestory... Rather, while still playing it, maybe laughter is the best medicine.
me: it takes 3 times for the snail to die lor!!
c: the snail hard wad.
-__-"' omg. and i ROFL. big deal man.
i really wanted to just say out the above that's bothering me. Guess cal, you know that sth is.
and and and! im still here PLAYING maple. if my parents find out that this is so, they're so gonna kill me esp when im supposed to be up by 7am. great.
