folly.

And there can never be a day that we'll be truly happy cuz that it will always be at the back of your head. It will always be affecting you. And the way you think, the way you see me, the way you react, the way you act. And that I'll never be good enough for you. I don't know how to make you happy, i know only how to upset or anger or frustrate you even more than your present state.

There can never be a "i wish" cuz it's my fault. And i was just being naive. And i was just bluffing myself. And i will always think it'll be my fault. And it will always be my problem. And it'll always be a shadow lurking around you. And i dno how now. And i'm lost now. And i wanna find my way back- just how?

And when there seem to be a time to be really blissful, i have to ruin it all. To tragically crush our happiness with my own hands. Giving it all up? I just wanna crash and die in an accident now. Or just jump down the building. Or maybe slit my wrist and drip to my death. Or maybe electrocute myself. Or maybe bang my head against the wall till i'm unconscious. I think walking straight into a car is the best. Yes i am suicidal- i'm announcing to the world. I wish i could turn back time. But only time will tell. cuz we all know that that will never come true.

And there'll never be a chance to be truly truly happy with you again.