i.love.you!

i.love.you.baby.

thankyouforeverythingthatyou'vedone!

imgoingofftocameronhighlandsinawhile, andi'mtypingthiswhilesittingonyourcouchwithc.s.i.onscreen. andyousleepingsoundly.

i'lluploadphotosoftheeventssoonwheni'mback. let'sgoxiaolongbaobuffetokay?

iwannatellyoualsothatit'slovelytohaveyouatsoccertraining. it'senjoyabletohaveyoureviewandteachmeonhowicanimprovemysoccerskills.

ravingrabbitswheni'mbacktoo. iwannatry!! (:

cyawheni'mbackonmondayweehoursinthemorning.

*muacks*

hopeyousawmyphotomessage!

<3

me

ahm?

Exams.

Today's MM was a killer. Apparently the examiner kinda maxed out all his 5-star difficulty qns in this paper. CRAZY! =( boo hoo. it's far tougher than the prelims. all the upset and frustrations all had to be stashed somewhere. didn't feel like going for a jog while travelling back from expo. BUT! im glad i dragged my lazy bum. Cuz...

I ran slightly more than 7.5km! Seriously! I cannot believe i can do so and still feel alive. Wait, i feel way better! cuz the negativities all got jogged off! And at this rate, ahm shouldn't be a big problem. Yar, 21km. slightly less than 3x of what i jogged today! anw, it's been lovely jogs in the evenings. The weather has been bearable in the evenings, less the day. I jogged from the siglap connector, turn down to marine vista then to marine terrace then cross over to ecp, jogged back to the seafood centres there, take the underground (which i am afraid!) then take the connector back. Sounds easy? think again after you see the map! =P

Terri guided me on handstands and after like a couple of failed attempts, ive been doing it nearly everyday! =) so easy after you get it. I think life is like that. Once it is a habit, it gets easier.

Anyhow, MSM is next on the 11th. And i have studying with freesia tml, dog visiting and probably movie with cal on sunday. Oh and jog with mommy and daddy on either days. Exciting! =)

Cherri~out. bathe bathe bathe.

happy birthday freesia!! =D

hope you have fun!! whichever fun means. =p

sian, if only blogspot has an app on iphone like livejournal... cheeze, it's so windy here in his room. makes me sleepy. and being sick = lethargic. im feeling all aching again. guess i'll just yi du gong du since the other stuff doesnt work well. yi du gong du works better for me ;)

ah, lazing at home should be a one-day affair only. 2 days still okay. 3 days, and im already fidgetive. gotta starting working... study-working, work-working and working-out-working. im growing sideways with no brains and no income. =(

okay, gonna work that pig sunny-side up x 1.

ciao.

hello all.

There were many times i wanted to blog, but i decided not to. Once, i turned to my diary. Others, i just slept on it. Feelings, now, aren't very much of must write to speak my mind out. I try my best to speak them out. Sometimes, you feel that im deliberately doing it to you. But really, some of them are either for fun or that's how i feel. Well now, having said that, i don't see a need to blog when i speak my mind out.

Anyway, CNY has come and gone. February has. 2 years. pretty long with ups and downs. very trying. And March has half gone by. The past few days have been good on a whole. generally been pretty happy. maybe just for the mood swings on both sides. But alas, life is life. nth's perfectly awesome or awesomely perfect. im happy having you with me. i hope having me with you too (: kidnapped for a week, i realised! got everyone missing me at home.

terri and sherri are playing the xbox. weird. mom's busy as usual. dad mentioned rabbit, so i took him out to play. and wanted to WALK THE RABBIT. failed miserably. let him off the leash. thought he wanted to suicide. grabbed him, and hugged him while running back into the house. frightened me. omg.

I rmb clutters... i must clear my clutters... physical ones are pretty done. im glad on the exterior visuals. interior are mostly done. except for 2 areas. minor ones.

finally uploaded photos onto fb... slow and steady. sucking my youth away... then again, i have my MM to read. So, good deal. keeps me awake. and typing this too... entertains me. and gosh, it's 3.07am!

Looking at the photos, it got me thinking how the trip was. I can't remember the minor details. I rmb the feelings. Mostly neutral, wishing things werent the way they were. Then again, they weren't uber upsetting or angry. they werent just of jubilant. having to see the world is good. i feel fortunate to have done so. i enjoyed the company mostly, i liked the atmosphere of holiday, i like the structures. makes me feel at home in uk. Just reminiscing now... glad i had you for the trip. even if it werent of romance, u made us laugh for the most part i rmb. Gee, i think i rmb the good and not the bad... oh well, isnt it better that way?

okay, i shall continue to upload and hit the books now... HUNGRY argh.

ALways on my mind...

wanna be with you. be there for you. and you for me. sounds good, yes?

Happy birthday Pang Zi. Can't wait to SEE YOU!!<3

*cherri.

PS: BITCH: Babe In Total Control Of Herself.

period. ;)

yue ding.

Listening to the piano start, it brought me back to the familiar tune i've heard when i'm at a bar. (most of the newer chinese songs i hear them in bars... and i learnt them there too.) Like shifted paradigm, i time-traveled back to those instances in bars. Especially those sweet times. Those times you did things that made me smile. Those times i hear songs that nearly make me tear.

You told me that you wanna cry cuz of this song. i told you dont cause i will before you. And i know certainly i will....

And listening again to the song, reading the words... Tears welled up... oh well...

Life's been crazy... the weird colourful. but it's not the colourful that i want...

sometimes love comes around.

i'm glad it was the earphone that was problematic, not the mp3 player. i've been waiting and trying to see if it's the player. finally, tried on with another earphone and found the root of it. i would have been very upset to know my belated present would be spoilt just abt a month with me, you know. and especially knowing myself being sentimental, it would have been rather devastating. Thank God.

I've got too many things to do, too little time. Someone just help me out maybe? My 24hrs is already maxed out (just like the credit limit of a credit card). I don't seem to sleep enough now, unless i'm forced to. perhaps that's why i like sleeping over at his place. anw, i guess i feel like doing the procrastinated stuff like packing up my table... i'll most probably end up sleeping in class later. or maybe during bfc as well.

I really feel like going on a hiatus. Cold wintery holiday. mmm... the sound of it is rather yummy hurhur. But really, i do hope so. Tanjong Pinang should be a good start, hopefully.

Sometimes ignorance is a bliss yet ironically, human are curious. and curiosity kills the cat. Some thoughts or events can be heart-wrenching when thought upon. Even songs i used to love saddens me. Eyelid twitches, refusal to continue. But i press on to face it. Blame me for being stubborn. But i'm persistent. I believe what i want to believe in unless you convince me. now, it isn't really that difficult to get me to your camp, if i see a reason to. That simple; just reason things out.

Okay, today ain't as bad as ytd. But we din get to blade today. But i got photos uploaded. Got work done. Sch work not done. Made people happy. Made others sad. Deep inside, i feel empty sometimes. But i struggle on. very mao dun at times, i admit.

At every stage and junction in life, we face different problems, different people. Ultimately, it says one thing. Determination to get to where you want to be.

And in life, i want to be happy.

iloveyou.

Watcha Say?

You feel better this way without us quarrelling?

Sure, the big time quarrels got me suicidal. But I miss the small bickers. Those tsks. Those eye-gorging replies/ reactions. I think i can cope with everything else that's in my path. Doctor advised exercise and better slping n eating patterns/ habits. And my parents don't know what im going through. Sisters know about me seeing the doc only. Jogs help me to relieve/ destress.

Blading with you makes me smile. I think alot after those sessions. It's nice to see you happily blading fast, carefree. Teases. Talks. And the nature helps me think a little better than urbanized parts of this small dot. I'm better now, the wounds on my palms are healing pretty fast (: no worries. next time, i'll get the guards so that i can try stunts more daringly! =D

_watcha say?_____________

[Chorus]
wha- wha- wha- wha- what did you say
Mmmm whatcha say
Ooh that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say
(Jason Derulo)
Mmmm that it´s all for the best?
Because it is

[Verse 1]
I was so wrong for so long
Only tryin´ to please myself (myself)
Girl I was caught up in her lust
When I don´t really want no one else
So no I know I should of treated you better
But me and you were meant to last forever

[Hook]
So let me in (let me in) give me another chance (another chance)
To really be your man
Cause when the roof caved in and the truth came out
I just didn´t know what to do
But when I become a star we´ll be living so large
I´ll do anything for you
So tell me girl

[Chorus]
Mmmm whatcha say
Ooh that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say
Mmmm that it´s all for the best?
Because it is
Mmmm whatcha say
Ooh that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say
Whatcha say (whatcha say)
wha- wha- wha- wha- what did she say?

[Verse 2]
How could I live with myself
Knowing that I let our love go (love go)
And ooh what I do with one chance
I just gotta let you know
I know what I did wasn´t clever
But me and you we´re meant to be together

[Hook]
So let me in (let me in) give me another chance (another chance)
To really be your man
Cause when the roof caved in and the truth came out
I just didn´t know what to do
But when I become a star we´ll be living so large
I´ll do anything for you
So tell me girl

[Chorus]
Mmmm whatcha say
Ooh that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say
Mmmm that it´s all for the best?
Because it is
Mmmm whatcha say
Ooh that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say
Whatcha say (whatcha say)
wha- wha- wha- wha- what did she say?


[Verse 3]
Girl tell me what to say I (say I)
I don´t want you to leave me
Though you caught me cheatin´
Tell me tell me what to say I (say I)
I really need you in my life
Cuz things ain´t right girl

Tell me tell me what to say I (say I)
I don´t want you to leave me
Though you caught me cheatin´
Tell me tell me what to say I (say I)
I really need you in my life
Cuz things ain´t right

[Hook]
Cause when the roof caved in and the truth came out
I just didn´t know what to do
But when I become a star we´ll be living so large
I´ll do anything for you
So baby whatcha say!

[Chorus]
Mmmm whatcha say
Ooh that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say
Mmmm that it´s all for the best?
Because it is
Mmmm whatcha say
Ooh that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say
Whatcha say (whatcha say)
wha- wha- wha- wha- what did she say?

Evacuate the dancefloor.

Turn up the music
Let's get out on the floor
I like to move it
Come and give me some more
Watch me gettin' physical
Out of control
There's people watchin' me
I never miss a beat

Steal the night
Kill the lights
Feel it under your skin
Time is right
Keep it tight
Cause it's pulling you in
Wrap it up
Can't stop cause it feels like an overdose
(Feels like an overdose)

Oh, oh, evacuate the dancefloor
Oh, oh, I'm infected by the sound
Oh, oh, stop, this beat is killing me
[Hey, Dr.DJ let the music take me underground]

Everybody in the club
Evacuate the dancefloor
Oh, oh, I'm infected by the sound
Everybody in the club
Stop, this beat is killing me
[Hey, Dr.DJ come burn this place right down to the ground]

My body's aching
System overload
Temperatures rising
I'm about to explode
Watch me I'm intoxicating taking the show
It's got me hypnotized
Everybody step aside

Steal the night
Kill the lights
Feel it under your skin
Time is right
Keep it tight
Cause it's pulling you in
Wrap it up
Can't stop cause it feels like an overdose
(Feels like an overdose)

Oh, oh, evacuate the dancefloor
Oh, oh, I'm infected by the sound
Oh, oh, stop, this beat is killing me
[Hey, Dr.DJ let the music take me underground]

Everybody in the club
Evacuate the dancefloor
Oh, oh, I'm infected by the sound
Everybody in the club
Stop, this beat is killing me
[Hey, Dr.DJ come burn this place right down to the ground]

Come on and evacuate
Feel the club is heating up
Move on and accelerate
Push it to the top
Come on and evacuate
Feel the club is heating up
Move on and accelerate
You don't have to be afraid

Now guess who's back with a brand new track
That got everybody in the club going mad
So everybody in the back
Get your back up on the wall and just shake that thang
Go crazy, yo lady, yo baby
Let me see you wreck that thang
And drop it down low, low
Let me see you take it to the dancefloor, yo

Everybody in the club
Evacuate the dancefloor
Everybody in the club
I'm infected by the sound
Everybody in the club
Stop, this beat is killing me
[Hey Dr.DJ let the music take me underground]

Oh, oh, evacuate the dancefloor
Oh, oh, I'm infected by the sound
Oh, oh, stop, this beat is killing me
[Hey, Dr.DJ let the music take me underground]

Everybody in the club
Evacuate the dancefloor
Oh, oh, I'm infected by the sound
Everybody in the club
Stop, this beat is killing me
[Hey, Dr.DJ come burn this place right down to the ground]

-----------------------------------------------

Stuck in my head. Upbeat maniac hurhurhur! =P

It's getting itchy here man! Go sleep, cherri, sleep!!

I had fun blading today. The peak of excitement? Nearly crashed into the huge board at the new skate park at ecp. thanks to calvin, he broke my fall before i fell. or i most prob would be having a broken nose now or ankle or so! thank you yo! =D and for the technical stuff on my lappie and mp3! =)) yay <3

cherri

with smiles.

Slept in. Body couldn't take 20hrs on 3hrs of slp. not for a long time.

Sent mooncakes over to Cal's. couldnt get the 4 flavours one from fairmont, so ended up with baileys... anw since he likes it, it's good. hahaha if not no one will eat. Went to catch Surrogate with Calvin at Kallang Leisure. Rather thought provoking movie. About us human missing out on the human touch. How everything seem so perfect in the surrogate world albeit the machinery. hmm... ...

Arcade. stuffed toys and daytona. got thrashed =( din know can drift one! pretty impressed actually! hahaha oh well, next time i'll try! =) heh, coconut head was kidnapped. cant believe i dont remember indiana jones. i couldnt match the movie title to the theme song that i randomly sang omg even after tons of hints. No wall, just pole hahaha.

Went Cyberdome at Le Meridien to find Freesia, Charissa and Joe. Couldn't find the place. So ulu. Played L4D. I've never played with other friends except Calvin. Once, joined another 2 players for advance mode. But other than that, i've always had guidance from him. Haha, so come just now, couldn't find the place and all. hahaha. I thought i was bad...! then Cal came and Killing Floor seems rather cool. Quote him, " Killing Floor is like L4D meet CS". HAha mutated beings and monsters with load of weapons that you can purchase. And weld. wth. Katana seems rather nice. but nth beats the thought of chainsaw. whee!

had supper with them and john. talked qt a bit and yup i drove a manual van back to my place!! Whee. Poor john and joe. haha so bad, they laughed at me so much. lack of practise is so embarrassing =( got too used to auto cars alr and come to think of it, i've never drove a manual car out to the express way and town! wow.

alright, gotta be in bed now. hv to be up by 7.15 latest. LONG day later! work trg, sch, (thinkin of wad in between), church svc (first time gg! to my sisters' svc), butter (most prob i think). it's mid-autumn festival today!! ahhaha must eat the rabbit mooncupcake with my family! =)

i had fun today and night. thank you all (:

Fame.

The movie, reminded me of how much i miss the performing arts. How much i hold dearly arts is to me. How i miss dance. It is a good way to remind us all that we have talents in us that are yet to be discovered and it's only you, met with the opportunities, that can unleash them.

It reminded me also that life isn't easy and trying times are events that help us grow. Whenever we take a step back, we also move ahead even further and faster than we already are. But the only person who can hinder you from growing, is yourself. So, persist and be reminded of your reason why you are there.

God doesn't throw obstacles at us that are too difficult to overcome. It's us who make it difficult. He presents difficulties that are manageable for our souls to grow as we overcome the obstacles. He shows us the way with signs, be it dreams, people or verses. Even feelings are too.

Job is a book of trials and tribulations that we can seek enlightenment from, while Proverbs helps us to remember how we should lead our lives. Men and women are different in the eyes of the Lord.

I'll grow and learn and overcome difficulties... i shall not be defeated. i must be strong and have faith. to see myself through.

first days.

First day of work and school... Din go work, went to see doc. couldnt drag myself outta bed, slept late, couldnt slp. seen the doc. had mc. got to sch late. bachata perf, so got myself a long toilet break ahaha. went to see the sports recruitment too. level 4 hall. saw dajie n janice. was first on their recruitment list. right. though i miss dance, i wanna try sth new. bring out the athletic part of me.

long day... 12 to 6.30. CF then ESAP. the latter was boring. like YAWNS. dang.

ended ESAP early before 6pm. Took 75 to tg pagar. fell aslp on the bus. wow. anw walked to chinatown. met calvin for dinner. porridge place. had raw fish n veg. and peanut butter and jelly brownie from P.Osh that he bought. very nice blend. went to katong to play l4d. normal mode. 2hrs.

Daunt. Vexed. Flustered.

I dno how to face him.. the nearer i was to chinatown, the more i wanna turn away cuz i dno what to expect. But when i saw him, everything seemed like it used to. made me guess the flavour of brownie all the way to the porridge place. things and time that made me laugh and smile. When you held my hands, i felt like everything's serene. and for the first time these days, i dn feel blue. i wanted it to not end.

I will make my chicken stew later. i know i wannna cook it. i know also that if it makes someone happy, i will go out to do so. i sometimes dno why i will do so too. but when i see that smile and elation and ecstatic and excitement, everything seemed worth putting the effort and going all out for. as long as i feel appreciated, i'm happy too.

me

simple things that make me smile.

Hello,
shall keep this short cuz it's really hot to be in a sweater when it isn't cold. Anw, had a pretty long day out but it's pretty enjoyable.

Went with cal to see his timetable then got soya bean drink from selegie soy bean. we went ps to pretty much hang ard. time passed pretty fast as we window shopped. walked back to selegie and green tea frappe from starbucks became my companion along with Allan and Barbara Pease's Body Language. Awesome book that's taking me uber long to finish cuz i dn wanna miss out any details.

Had dinner at the jap place at Pomo. Before that, we went to the toy-catching machine (do you even have a name for them?!) Anw $2 for 2 Scrump. Caught one each try. Omg i was laughing pretty hard cuz the 2nd one, the clip got caught with the side of the toy. Anw dinner was fried salmon skin, yummy chicken drumstick and curry rice with pork n chicken.



This is Scrump. Lilo's toy in the movie. <3 btw, this is not my actual pic.

Hopped down to Ion Orchard and gave aishah a visit at topshop. A&W diet soda from marketplace. Caught The Time Traveller's Wife at Cineleisure.

I felt pretty sad cuz well, one is that the wife has to bear the death and all of the guy. secondly, everytime he travels through time, he may be gone for pretty long and the worse is the uncertainty of being in danger. it's daunting i have to admit. it's that kind of heart-wrenching but simple kinda love. It's a show worthwhile to catch. Which also reminds me that i should go read the book. hmm, like all other books i have yet to complete. or touch for that matter.

That one hour before the movie... Left4dead. Omg i couldn't imagine myself actually being pretty calm less the one off scream. Yeah i know it's on easy mode. But still, i have a sense of accomplishment. haha sue me for cheap pleasure.

To summarize, i love spending time with you, Calvin. Simple things that make me smile. yay. hearts you hun! love.

xoxo, me

A rainy morning...

Well, firstly i know i haven't blogged in ages- not because i don't have anything to blog but guess i'm just too lazy to. There are many pretty eventful ones but for the past weeks, i've been battling within myself what to do with changing companies that it affected my overall emotion. And that itself doesn't help very much with other stuff going on in my life.

I spent my first national day away from home. I rmb how my mom will be all excited to watch the live broadcast on the teevee and we'll all wait patiently for that 5mins- 15mins tops- firework from our windows. This year, i spent national day with calvin's family; sunday family dinner at wahiro. It's some fun to share food, talk and laugh at whatever that's being said and observed then. food's awesome, above that the company made dinner light-hearted (: sho nice!

Grocery shopping!! boo no chips for me this round cuz i was tied to his arm. once freed, i run wild at the same row only. lol!! but i like it when im stuck in this pocket, holding hands. xP

Watched sg idol later when back at his place. funny people: guy with high pitch, sg A(h)vril lavigne, all the lookalikes etc. Steph, Auntie Anne, Calvin and I had some good laughter. Ridiculous people. Can't wait to watch the next episode, honestly.

It's a public holiday today. For a monday even, it's really early to be out of bed. I woke up an hour ago and now, i can't seem to want to sleep cuz it's raining. I lied in bed, listened really hard and found that it's RAINING! Not quite a good start for those who have outdoor plans on a public hol. I love morning rains like this especially when i can slack and stay in bed. But i felt more like blogging instead of staying in bed. So here i am, in front of the com with a mug (not the stitch one, Calvin!! =0 ) typing away. I enjoy the loud pour of the rain outside, don't get me wrong cuz i do miss such days even if it woke me up.

Went to catch GI Joe on sat with melvin jaime alex and calvin at the grand cathy on sat. Very seldom do you get a 2hr movie feeling that it's only an hr and a half! Mei's house was a walk away from paragon and i din know how to go so poor alex and calvin were tugged behind. Well then, social house with the guys plus freesia and peiwen was alright. But the crowd was terrible! the place was SOo0o empty. disappointed! well, i guess the "feelings talk" went pretty fine. I really do wanna learn how to speak my feelings out. And im still learning to. Cuz sometimes when i say something really frank, it may go brutally honest and blunt it'll be as well. So technically, i'm learning how to be more tactful as well. Thank you peiwen and alex for your help. I know those long smoking sessions were sth but i dno what.

And i meant it much when i say that im glad we didn't give up learning from one another cuz in such circumstances, sometimes it's easier to just give everything up. But im not ready to. cuz you mean alot to me. and i could have let go even cuz im the one being squeezed. and i was really disheartened when jason texted me that you were not well. and you could have let go too cuz of how insensitive i was. but im truly heartened that we trashed things out and hold onto each other stronger with open minds. Once again, im sorry calvin and that we all learn from everything, big and small.

Oh yes, caught Up! with Calvin and his school friends on thurs. *points!* <- that's what the talking dog does! Darn cute! and the giant bird which loves chocolate. "good morning sir. may i assist you ... ..." the little boy is cute too hahahaha. "Will you be my prisoner please?" asked the talking dog to the giant bird. omg! Da jie went camping with janice and friends in Msia. And i miss camping. Those outdoor survival instincts. And nature. And wilderness. I wanna go outdoor cooking, rafting, pioneering etc ! Rarr rarr!!!

I wanna thank my daddy for being there for me. one liner says alot huh =x

Well then, cherri's signing off with a sore throat no matter how much i hydrate myself one hour later...
going back to bed! =P

hearts you!

Nothing beats more than a wonderful companion in cycling, prawning and chilling out!! =D

Thank you Calvin (: We laugh, we bicker, we poke at each others' ego and also prawn into my hair and face. But what's most important is we have fun, spend time tog and enjoy each other's company. Love you baby <3

time.

i guess i understand how steph will feel after reading her blog abt spending time with that someone special esp when time seems to be the factor. cal went out cycling with desmond atm and im at his place supposedly studying. i said supposedly cuz im not now! im thinking back on the suntan cum swim just now and i feel happy. cuz we both are doing sth we wanna do and the best is to have each other's company. ty dear (:

i hearts m&m crispy and chewing gum now. IM notes are incomprehensivable. esp the study guide whilst the notes is a thick stack of digesting to be done. and im soooo lazy. i guess i found a way: to reward myself with rock band after a certain number of pages that i clear. this way, it'll be easier for me.

cherri~out

5am.

i hate the feeling whereby i screwed up my sleeping time: i nap when i normally don't, i sleep when i'm normally awake. and it's only these couple of days that i've been doing so. it sucks to have myself not being able to fall aslp at 3.30am in the morning cuz i've napped at 3pm and fell asleep at 1am, but i weren't even doing work/ studies/ revision. crappy feeling. the best thing is there are alot in my mind and frankly, it doesn't help when i feel pressurized by other things when im already not able to focus in studies. 

my papers are 20th, 21st and 27th, since im not taking the one on 28th. it doesn't help when i have people asking me why not just give it a shot. i ask them back, "why waste my time trying to even figure out what the subject is trying to tell me?!" yar i know, it is not the positive me. but i hate to admit that it's not that tough, since freesia can get like 48 marks for prelims. then again, she probably at least get the gist of the subject. note: it's SUBJECT, not topic. it's not the money, it's the effort. i may sound stolid on this, but i know what's in next year for me. Yes, consequentially, i'll have to cope with 5 subjects. i'm taking into account whereby i pass the 3 core subjects this time around too.

anw i've been prawning with calvin quite a bit that i must say we both are not bad at it. i think he's good at it. just that the last time we prawned (2 days ago), probably not much luck. or maybe i took his luck. cuz the malay guys opposite us were talking about me. How come i throw the rod in, then sure get bite. and this occurred a couple of times. qt cool neh ahaha. freshwater prawn is fun yet addictive. 1.6kg 2 rods 3hrs, not too bad la. i wanna try lobstering next! we saw this guy catch lobster but he din share much, only that he could see sth white in the water- either dead prawn or lobster. but even when it bites, there's a technique to catching it. i think when the lobster bites, the float will sink. then he waited for a while before he tugs the line qt hard. but all these got a certain proven technique. i know, cuz i realised the technique for freshwater prawn (i mean diff ppl got diff techniques. mine's diff from calvin's though in general, it's qt the same like for the lobster one above). anw, it gets so addictive that before i shut my eyes after each session, my mind pictures the float sinking = prawn! this was more prominent when i lost the HUUUGEEEEE prawn on the surface the last time we went. omg that one would probably weigh 700g or so? the claws were humongously huge. omg crying out loud man!! rarr rarr!!

anyhow it's 5am already. i haven't clubbed in a while, i can't really rmb how it feels to be high in a club. i only know that if it's past the high stage, it sucks. esp for your friends. i do drink, but normally abt 2 glasses when im outside, be it beer or else. i think drinking at home is better- much much much safer esp after my experiences. i had Moscato just now with my dad. sth like dessert wine but a lil more bubbly. having chocolates with it was way better than it alone. hahaha (: i had way lesser than the white and red wines i opened the last 3 times round. but you know how it is- i drink when im not feeling good. and it feels good to drink and fall aslp. rather than trying to cry yourself to sleep like how most people will. yes, that's usually the case right? bah, im not promoting that one should do so whenever you feel sad or others. im just thinking back that's all.  it's just way better to open up and talk and not bottle everything inside, cuz when it accumulates, it's bad. real bad yea.

anyhow, im awake now. like long ago. i feel like baking. but i dno when he will call, cuz i offered to send him home from rebel. then again, he probably would text me when he got home instead. sically, i bake halfway then need to go off. then chao da, like my toasts. *rolls eyes* always one leh... maybe im not cut out for culinary. even basic one like toaster also like tt. hmpfh. feels qt inferior that a guy can do better than me. i tried. and i will again. sigh.

oh well, hopefully mom will wanna go jog later when she wakes up. at least i got companion. not that songs in my mp3 aren't sufficient. but company for a change (: i couldn't believe that i could complete 2 rounds of my estate plus climbing up the stairs. whoot awesome can. so i believe really that it's in the mind (esp when it's not the stitches, which sucks big time). anyhow, i actually jogged to the beat of bachata and salsa songs. maybe you ppl should try, other than rnb or rock. just for a change. hahah maybe classical is good too =x i dno, you try then tell me heh.

okay, im pretty done here now. was looking at cookies recipes. haha ultimately, i think im lazy to bake esp in the day. so hot already still have that 375 deg fahrenheit at you. it's the same as cold rainy day still eat ice cream. ;P

ciaos. xoxoxo.

cherri

Back on track.

Hmm, apart from why im taking the day off everything, i'm enjoying my time here at starbucks with my music and pretty quiet companion across me with his manga online.

I decided to download the music files that the mj alumni guys posted online for the midyear concert out of curiosity and also i really miss band. Boy, I'm definitely not regretting the time that the download off the file hosting site take. What made me smile/ smirk was the all too familiar tone of the pleasant start to Bert Appermont's Noah's Ark. That very song that we played for concerts and also for the International Music Competition 2006 in Genting where we attained Gold with Honours. Yummy. That very song that i really enjoyed the 10mins+ very much. Juxtaposing the trumpet playing in Starbucks through my earphones and Noah's Ark, the former was of no comparison. Hands down. I can never describe how i really feel right now, but i certainly miss the espirit de corps of the bandsmen, primary school through jc. Nevertheless, the level of the bands were definitely far off. I had the most gruelling time in MJ band under the baton of Ms Sia. However, it was the place where i grew the most as a player. Songs were wonderful. Invictus by Philip Sparke was our Gold winning piece in our very first SYF competition in 2005 May 5th, if my memory doesn't fail me. AWESOME was the word. I miss those concert times too. Those times when we were had all the spotlight especially when we were soloists. After each song, Ms Siah will make us stand and bow. Those musical pieces! And fast swaying jazz pieces! Rarr. They touched my heart really much. Reminiscing such times in sec and pri also. (:

Anyhows back to reality, after thinking about it for quite like the whole day, i decided what i needed to do and what i should simply focus on. I can't let others take charge of my life and affect me so much, even if they are the closest to me. Yes, they matter. But that's it. I'm sick and tired of being pushed around and let you be my master so to speak. That's all i gotta share. I just feel that it's wasting too much of my time thinking and feeling. After the last straw this morning, i've numbed myself. I've been too concerned about them but things i tried to improve the matter/s were to no avail. Forget about it. One afternoon off is all I'm giving myself to grief for the rest that has gone and about to come. If they ever regret, that's not really my problem anymore. I know at the very least, i tried. Be it subtly, discretely or even obviously. I live for myself and not others live for me. Period.

Time to get things done done done. First up, my FYE. Fastrack. Yum.

Cherri.

Happiness.

I'm sooo mad at my sister just now. Better after counting many 10s. But still, it's really irritatingly frustrating when she PMSes or when she's with her nuts off. Anw, she's not the focus here rarr.

I think i'm telepathic or sort. I actually could feel how my dad was feeling. That very unsettled feeling was right, Cal. Apparently my dad was nowhere near high spirits when he came home. Well then. Had a father-daughter talk and sherri joined in when she came back too. Interesting to know what had happened during dinner on Sunday- dad, mom n sherri.

Oh yes, Confession of a Shopaholic is the first movie that i caught on its first screening day. that i can remember la. Very nice. And im a chocoholic and alcoholic. Remember chocolate + alcoholic = chocoholic too! =P The guy sitting on my right (the left din have anyone) turned a couple of times and gave me that "haha it's-so-you" thing. Spoken and all. HEH. At least i don't have food waving hi and luring me to them. HAHA not yet.

Anyhow, my weekend was packed. 

Friday... School, work then i dropped at Aljunied to walk and bought baos for my family. Drove to find Stingray bro with Calvin abt 10-ish. Heineken, sugar cane with lemon and cockle. Drunken cockle!! Prawned from 12mn to 4am.

Sat... School then met Cal at Lido. I LOVE ISETAN B1, doncha too? ;) And my Sun Moulin. Prawned from 8pm to 12+am. And cal's dad came. Hey, his dad's pro one can!! Anw, we caught qt a fair bit. All in all, abt 20 prawns? with an hr and a half no luck at all? Haha. Itchy fingers. I actually dreamt and daydreamed of prawning. Thrice!

Sun... School @ MH. Went into JB to have dinner with Cal's family and extendeds. Omg really really awesome sumptuous meal. Very tasty food (: oh, and drinks too. Gula melaka! =P Haven't been into JB for a longggg time. Short trips seemed to have a refreshing effect! Sweeet! And i enjoyed myself real much. (: HAPPINESS!

Today was a rush. School, suntec. Anw, i realised that suntec to bugis is really near. haha. if not, it's me and my fast-paced walk. *speaks under my breath "that guy, make me walk from the rock to bugis street and back to epicentre suntec" RARR* Corn muffin from Kenny Rogers! =D Anw i realised there are many watch shops having sale. YAY i want my white strip and gold/copper rim. (:

Oh. While walking to Bugis, there was this guy who kept turning around to see me. Told his friend some stuff. All the way from the bridge to the Chinese Chamber that side. And when he was to cross the road, he asked for my number cuz he said i looked really sweet. When i refused to give, he wanted to give me his. And he asked if i've got a bf. I replied yes. But he replied, "still can be friend right?" I told him i was in the middle of typing a msg, which is true okay. Then he said, "Give me yours then." haha. Anw i took his number and he told me to text him. Lol. Right. Admittedly, he's got balls, yes. But it's one of an experience lol. Told you im cold towards strangers. reminds me of dbl o with alex, brandon, cal, janice, free and free's sis. right cal? ;)

"my mommy told me not to talk to strangers," was all that i said. ZHAI.

I haven't danced in the longest time. EVER. This friday @ Zouk. En La Pasion. Event held by En Motion. RUSTY me!!

Lastly, Good Friday and Easter Sunday. How are you going to spend them? (:

love, cherri.

To Calvin: I wanted to text you this but you were "slping now" already. Just wanna tell you, thank you very much for the memories this a year and 2 months. For the laughters and fun, quiet moments, sharing times, msg on mirrors, silly billy, lameness, laughing at me/ you/ ourselves, cranky, late nights, dinners, lunches, breakkies, times we share our view on things esp food, songs!, "our" songs, ya teases, soccer matches, starbucks, macs, subways, psp fun, outings, movies on the way home, prawning, times with ya n my family, etc. More importantly, for enduring my gibberish, accident-proneness and understanding me esp relenting on my sugar/ choco and alcohol intakes. Holding hands, ya kisses/"kisses", moments when i look you in the eyes and smile, times when you are a lil playful, and knowing that at the end of the day i have you in my life, keeps me smiling. To summarize, i thank God for bringing you into my life. We're not perfect humans, but... Happiness is my ultimate goal everyday- for me n you. Hope it's yours too. Sweet memories <>. i love you (:

Note to self: I MUST START MUGGING!!

a picture paints a thousand words.

Hihi,

i'm letting the pictures do most of the talkings... Of how i feel, of my impressions, of my wish, my desires...

Of dreams...

Confidence...

carefree...

my solitude...

my kind of holiday n weekend...

Of comfort...

Of QT and nature...

Of (artistic) love...

Of sweet memories...

Of what i call companionship...

I am thankful for having known you. Of the highs and lows, good times and bad ones. Laughters and angers, tears and joys. 

xoxo, 

cherri <>

Full dinners.

My weekend has been alright. Well, squeezing in IT fair in suntec on sat and today. kenny, calvin and i had dinner at kenny roger's at MS. corn muffin!! oh, i'll upload the photos soon. not at home with my cable yet. cheese macaroni and salad as sides. well, walking around, window shop and eye feasting on colours (: despite the crowd and cal's bad flu/ stuffy nose, it was niceeee lar.

Sleep was what i had indulged in. hahaha. "im sick, feel like shit" as quoted hahaa.

Went down to suntec (yes again!!) with cal and sisters. Lesser crowd than ytd and had buys (they bought stuff, not me =( ) well, dinner was good as well with cal's family at cafe oliv. im still sooo full. had sausage and snail and rosti. and dessert was nice too (:

Frankly, i can tolerate most nonsenses- jeering at me, teasing me and attitude me. Just couldn't take it when i have someone telling me that i hurt the person, say X. At this point, please refrain from reading if ya not in the mood for rants. You are warned.

Firstly, X is a good friend of mine. We've been through some tough times and had some good times talking and all. Anw, X msged me online, both messenger and fb and also sms. And X felt hurt cuz of what i did. For God's sake, good friends aren't determined by how much time we spent tog, but the quality and support we give one another. Quantity may mean that we drift apart. But really, that's not it. I may not be abel to spend as much time cuz of work and prelims and other factors but seriously, as a friend, you should understand. I really cannot take it when someone tell me such thing cuz i have no intention to hurt the person or whatsoever. Or however X put it. Cuz what can i gain from it? why do i wanna lose a friend? Seriously, give it a thought. I mean i went through some other ordeals to appreciate X more as a friend. But that's really just that. It doesn't dictate or determine or how X wanna measure up our friendship. Cuz that's superficial. I really don't really wanna give a thought about explaining sometimes, cuz i feel that i do not have to answer to X. Omfg. yes, that's how i think. i really don't have to report to you about my whereabouts and my doings. Even as concern a friend is, i really like my space. I don't like to get suffocated. Concern and care and however you put it, are not by such means. Omg. Even my own boyfriend doesn't do such thing. I really like to breathe as a friend. I will tell you what i wanna tell and i don't really have to get tied down in that way. I guess curiosity may get the better of a person huh. And in this case, maybe a friendship.

Tell me more why X feels that way... Rarr. Okay, maybe it's how i think and perceive things to be but c'mon. I know X is a good friend, someone who takes words and friendship really preciously, cuz X tells me that ALL the time. And emphasized. And drifted apart doesn't necessarily mean that we aren't good friends anymore, isn't it?! I cherished times i spent with people and X should really be glad that i went through those crazy ordeals to make me realise what kinda friends i should keep close to me. But no. That definitely isn't the case. And probably cuz i haven't kept him updated abt my life. Sigh. It sounds really contradicting now. But but but it makes sense. Good Lord. Now, i really don't wanna talk to him or settle things rarr but i know i have to cuz i know a friend who's just concerned. Probably over-concerned sometimes. Sigh.

Okay, i just needed an outlet to venge my anger and frustrations. Telling calvin all these may frustrate him as well. I'd rather keep it cool. I'll settle it well. Just as well. One lesser person in such negative light would be better. Sorry cal, it's nothing personal against you. It's just me. I wanna get this over and done with without you getting all worked up and worried. (maybe more of worried than worked up la).

tada. my blog full of rants. =p

cherri~

LATER...

Well, after playing maplestory... Rather, while still playing it, maybe laughter is the best medicine.

me: it takes 3 times for the snail to die lor!!

c: the snail hard wad.

-__-"' omg. and i ROFL. big deal man.

i really wanted to just say out the above that's bothering me. Guess cal, you know that sth is. 

and and and! im still here PLAYING maple. if my parents find out that this is so, they're so gonna kill me esp when im supposed to be up by 7am. great.