astrology.

I am really restless now, thanks to the lack of knowledge and practice. let's see:

CF 5th may wed
MM 7th may fri
MSM 11th may
ESAP 26th may

And i wonder why im always restless. Even if you don't believe in astrology, suck it up. I read mine in more accuracy and i couldn't believe myself. I do have an inner restlessness. Can't remember why though. How true can that be? wow.

And astrology in details (not those kind you normally read in the papers) is actually freakily true.

okay, enough of astrology stuff... need to sit and study now.

cherri

i wish i didn't feel emo the whole day, then i guess i would have enjoyed my day even more. while waiting for my friend to pick me up, after camwhoring, i decided to view my past photos. I watched the videos we took. Laughed so hard at this particular one which was taken in the Cathy. With the two bears. so farnie, i laughed so hard and had to repeat it at least 3 times.

But i felt worse after that. Cuz it made me realise how i really miss times tog, miss you.

RARR.

miss you...

sickly blue.

=( im sick. my throat's scratchy itchy. maybe cuz it's in the night... and so i'll start coughing! so my nose is pretty blocked now. hate that feeling cuz i cant get sufficient air into my brain. feels qt f-up. now, the world's outside and im stuck indoor. in cal's house with the tv, breeze and the com. so much for my last day of clubbing. i can start work minus unit trust already. So i gotta brush up on my stuff and the worse is im being pressured now to get things done by this week.

sheesh. free, mei and cheryl are at zirca, and what's most saddening is that this is the last wk for her in sg before she flies back to uk.

cal, alex, louis, brandon and brandon's girl are at butter. i was supposed to go with peiwen to club tonight regardless of venue. oh well, gotta do so next time then.

i wanted to be rebellious and go against what calvin said. "go n dont ever come back", "go back home", etc when i was telling alex on the phone abt me wanting to go club. i was just that inch closer to doing so but i guess im glad i didn't cuz i know he has good intention of making me stay home. cuz i really needed my rest and that im not feeling well. but saying those were really harsh. Leveraging on my dad (even without his "permission") is still way nicer than saying those in " ". honestly, it rings in my mind. must have been pretty bad/ traumatic to have sth leave a deep impression esp when it stays in the head. wasn't THAT upset but if his tone was a lil meaner, im sure i would have strong-headed/ stubbornly done sth foolish like agreeing and grab my stuff outta room. honestly, im really relieved that i was clear-headed enough to think.

Sometimes it's really tough to "just say/ tell me whatever you think" cuz i know if i do so, i'm really screaming out for trouble. i could have told him off many a times how nasty/ ridiculous/ horrendous/ utter absurd he was, but i chose not to do so atm. cuz by screaming out for negative attention is the worst move. esp with friends around. for example, ytd with alex and gang, he took my an pan jap pancake and refused to return to me. even after shoving it in my face twice asking if i want, didn't make me move an inch/ reply after the first time i couldn't get it back. and it was only when the pancake was half eaten that it was on the table, in front of me. i really wanted to just leave it there when we were leaving. it definitely would have brewed a storm cuz of my strong-headedness. but, i believe in a relationship, we give and take and complement. no point fighting with someone who was just hungry yet teasing. SIGH. cuz i think he tolerated me as much as i do. i dno how to judge quantity but at least i know of examples to back me up with.

he has his moodiness, i have my randomness. both are nonsense lar. but i enjoy times when we both laugh and smile and tease and bicker and at the end of the day, they are memories that keep us going... think back and smile. for we've been thru really happy ones. we say the same thing, we laughed at each other, we poke fun at one another...

Come to think of it, it took me a long while to be able to laugh at myself. cuz sometimes, i do the most silly stuff, say the most silly things, coin the weirdest words. but the egotistical me gets the better of me still... hmm.

Michelle just asked on my wall if i wanna go butter this sat. well, we'll see abt that again after i ask calvin.

ytd was real hectic man travelling up and down is more than costly. it's draining.
went killiney at pomo for my breakkie then ps to withdraw money to pay my sch fee which is where i headed next. then rushed to parkview for trg. later went back to orchard to meet calvin and alex and friends. was pretty tired already but went for a game of left4dead.

And that was what left me tossing and turning in bed cuz of the scenes in the game. normal mode was tougher. and 2hrs of it did pass by real quickly. yet the images stayed vividly in my mind. nice, so nice. i was so tempted to occupy the space next to cal (which somehow he asked me mins before that he's gonna leave space for me. i dno his reason. but seemed pretty psychic huh!). but no, i din have the heart to wake the already-fast-asleep him up. good gracious me...

im feeling all blue. sian, gotta be up early later at 9am so gotta get to bed soon to recuperate anw. see you all later then world.

love,
me

hungry.

Wow i can't see how come i'm so hungry. I came home and within an hour, i had:

• 1 glass of milk
• 1 bar of toblerone
• about 5 spoonfuls of potato chips
• 6 slices of aloe vera dipped in condensed milk

I had dinner!! i had 5 meals for the day already and im still hungry omg i'm a growing pig adolescent.

it feels weird and seems a long time since i slept in my own bed. Seems. anw a long week behind. a longer wk ahead. an early day later. lack of sleep again. boo!

mambo next wk anyone? zouk's mambo anniversary wha.

gnitez world.

facebook.

I just started playing Fish Wrangler and Mousehunt on facebook after looking at how Calvin has been on both of them for the longest time that I've known. These games must have some fun in them to captivate his attention. Okay, I'm quite stuck in front on the lappie right now cuz I'm reading about the games. They are passive games so basically I'm gonna be stuck to 15mins intervals. Lol the cute pictures of the mice and especially the fishes got me pretty excited about it but i really don't know how long i can last on them. It takes alot for a game to have me hook onto them for long. Then again, I think Fish Wrangler has a higher chance of getting me stuck onto it longer than Mousehunt.

Monster vs Aliens in 3D was slow moving, so slow that i actually dozed off for a while and Calvin to sleep for quite a bit. If it's not 3D, i think i would have slept longer. Really. 5 of us at Cineleisure and all agreed that other movies would have been a better choice. Oh wells.

Okay, I've just sounded the hunter's horn and I am going to change and koonz. goodnights world.

cherri~

PS: Fish in 7.6mins! I can change, brush teeth and fish. then technically, switch off and sleep for 6 hours before waking up for a brand new day.

IM.

i feel crappy right now. after my IM paper in the morning. i've been slacking in front of the pc like i haven't been before, downloading music. omg i mean im supposed to be studying for eoe paper tml. but i kinda give up already after the paper this morning. i feel dreaded. omg i really don't wanna take one more year to complete my studies. gosh. i just DON'T WANT TO STUDY ANYMORE. well, at the moment at least.

i am looking forward to the rest of the week. only. cuz beyond that is a different thing already. aiyah. i hate it.

i am looking forward to friday night with the girls. and was more looking forward to calvin being there too. guess it's me and my girlies then. i really could have debated with what he said just now. but im really in no mood to say anymore than just be safe. i've got more on my hands to deal with than to add another and make both more unhappy. guess if i were younger, i would have argued so much that will make sure i win the argument. oh well, i'll just do else that makes me feel better.

i wanna go blade and prawn tml. watch monsters vs aliens with calvin too.

i feel funny funny. maybe i'll really wanna eat macs sundae now now now now now. i am a spoilt kid now. and only now. mood swing.

blur me =\

Ah. i think Angels and Demons is quite a nice movie. well-paced. enough actions. but! i shall read the book first before commenting more on it though calvin said it's qt different from the book.

sunday morning, i ended up sending calvin, desmond and janet home. baked pound/ marble cake and chocolate chip cookies. made breakfast for dad and sis- sunny side up and butter&sugar bread, made avocado ice cream and avocado milkshake. i thought i was crazy too. (i dn have the photos now so too bad =P)

thank you calvin for the heart to get me war ration- vienna cream chocolate, seaweed, cornflakes (the one i was looking for cuz it was addictive after the first bite), strawberry pocky and also, your sis for the marshmellow.

(: (: hearts.

i cant believe im so blur now. fi cf then im. i though was fi im then cf. luckily freesia called me in the afternoon. else i would have studied im and sat for a cf paper. CRIES! i brought the wrong subs out to calvin's to study. right. and i came out of the wrong exit just now- cantonment police instead of sgh. =\

i've got so much i needa cover tonight and tml. wed fi 10am, thurs cf 2pm. i think luckily cf not 10am. then i got more time to play with.

i think subconsciously im getting a lil stressed out. with calvin trying to quit smoking, two agitable people in a room isn't quite the best team. oh wells, i'll try not to. but it's quite difficult sometimes not to say sth wrongly, cuz ppl do make mistakes and forget too. anw, it's only him i can get affected by over here, unlike at home. so yah, i shan't complain =x

oh yah, met cassand q and alison last thurs with cal. so nice to see them again!! =) like gd ole tuition times. and they're both in sim rmit. right. sch sch sch. must meet up with nicole and jean soon.

i miss chatting with freesia!!!

lackadaisical = lethargic. new word!! (:

and to Calvin: to hear you whizz makes me sleepy esp when you're so snuggly tugged into bed with the fan blowing at cha. i can imagine just how comfy it is to be there right now. but i cant do so cuz im not supposed to be falling aslp. sorry that the table light is bright that you gotta cover your head with the blankkie. i hope you'll reach your aim/ goal of quitting smoking. i'll be here to support you k? i'll try my best to control my temper also, esp when i got so much in my head to handle. i can't promise you that i wouldn't blow my top/ show you colours/give you attitude, but i'll lend you my ears and shoulder. and maybe my arm and fingers for you to bite.

Step by step,

we'll reach our destinations (: hearts you.

TIME!

So many things. So little time. Omg.

• Work
  
• Installing work-related software
• Photo transfer
  
• Photo upload to facebook
  
• Send email to Steph
• Make phonecalls
• Study
  
• Time for everyone; for myself
  
• Blog about my weekend
  
• Enjoy food! =P
  
• Prawning
• Jeff Dunham on Youtube
• PSP

RARR Rarr rArr! I'll need to strike them after im done.

Oh, waffle crisp is good!! Anw, i poured them into the air-tight tupperware, hoping that it can close nicely. Not! Anw, the best way to make sure that it does, is to share. And im glad to make terri n daddy (: (: (:

Oo0oh!! I hope that people will know that if they're insensitive about what they say, it's better off not saying. Making me angry is the last straw leh. =( my mom just did so. =__-"

Ooh baby!! Meow!!

cherri~ out

cherri

is bored at kallang leisure's subway on a friday night.

i miss partying quite a bit.

i mean at least there is sth to do, to look forward to omg. 

well then, just gotta find sth to do. even chocolate doesn't perk me up as much now. starbucks did a fair bit, i might say. 

RARR.

Full dinners.

My weekend has been alright. Well, squeezing in IT fair in suntec on sat and today. kenny, calvin and i had dinner at kenny roger's at MS. corn muffin!! oh, i'll upload the photos soon. not at home with my cable yet. cheese macaroni and salad as sides. well, walking around, window shop and eye feasting on colours (: despite the crowd and cal's bad flu/ stuffy nose, it was niceeee lar.

Sleep was what i had indulged in. hahaha. "im sick, feel like shit" as quoted hahaa.

Went down to suntec (yes again!!) with cal and sisters. Lesser crowd than ytd and had buys (they bought stuff, not me =( ) well, dinner was good as well with cal's family at cafe oliv. im still sooo full. had sausage and snail and rosti. and dessert was nice too (:

Frankly, i can tolerate most nonsenses- jeering at me, teasing me and attitude me. Just couldn't take it when i have someone telling me that i hurt the person, say X. At this point, please refrain from reading if ya not in the mood for rants. You are warned.

Firstly, X is a good friend of mine. We've been through some tough times and had some good times talking and all. Anw, X msged me online, both messenger and fb and also sms. And X felt hurt cuz of what i did. For God's sake, good friends aren't determined by how much time we spent tog, but the quality and support we give one another. Quantity may mean that we drift apart. But really, that's not it. I may not be abel to spend as much time cuz of work and prelims and other factors but seriously, as a friend, you should understand. I really cannot take it when someone tell me such thing cuz i have no intention to hurt the person or whatsoever. Or however X put it. Cuz what can i gain from it? why do i wanna lose a friend? Seriously, give it a thought. I mean i went through some other ordeals to appreciate X more as a friend. But that's really just that. It doesn't dictate or determine or how X wanna measure up our friendship. Cuz that's superficial. I really don't really wanna give a thought about explaining sometimes, cuz i feel that i do not have to answer to X. Omfg. yes, that's how i think. i really don't have to report to you about my whereabouts and my doings. Even as concern a friend is, i really like my space. I don't like to get suffocated. Concern and care and however you put it, are not by such means. Omg. Even my own boyfriend doesn't do such thing. I really like to breathe as a friend. I will tell you what i wanna tell and i don't really have to get tied down in that way. I guess curiosity may get the better of a person huh. And in this case, maybe a friendship.

Tell me more why X feels that way... Rarr. Okay, maybe it's how i think and perceive things to be but c'mon. I know X is a good friend, someone who takes words and friendship really preciously, cuz X tells me that ALL the time. And emphasized. And drifted apart doesn't necessarily mean that we aren't good friends anymore, isn't it?! I cherished times i spent with people and X should really be glad that i went through those crazy ordeals to make me realise what kinda friends i should keep close to me. But no. That definitely isn't the case. And probably cuz i haven't kept him updated abt my life. Sigh. It sounds really contradicting now. But but but it makes sense. Good Lord. Now, i really don't wanna talk to him or settle things rarr but i know i have to cuz i know a friend who's just concerned. Probably over-concerned sometimes. Sigh.

Okay, i just needed an outlet to venge my anger and frustrations. Telling calvin all these may frustrate him as well. I'd rather keep it cool. I'll settle it well. Just as well. One lesser person in such negative light would be better. Sorry cal, it's nothing personal against you. It's just me. I wanna get this over and done with without you getting all worked up and worried. (maybe more of worried than worked up la).

tada. my blog full of rants. =p

cherri~

LATER...

Well, after playing maplestory... Rather, while still playing it, maybe laughter is the best medicine.

me: it takes 3 times for the snail to die lor!!

c: the snail hard wad.

-__-"' omg. and i ROFL. big deal man.

i really wanted to just say out the above that's bothering me. Guess cal, you know that sth is. 

and and and! im still here PLAYING maple. if my parents find out that this is so, they're so gonna kill me esp when im supposed to be up by 7am. great.

No, i know my anger management is pretty reasonable. It took alot of times for me to tell her to shut up for me to put stuff into action. Really, it was beyond my rationale thinking atm- And no, i didn't hurt anyone; i just spoilt my door fixture. It isn't really that bad you see, it took me alot to calm down yes but she was seriously taking it for granted.

Shut up- is it really alot to ask for?

I have overwhelmingly alot in my mind right now- I thought I could take everything that you said last night and be positive and act positively about it. But I'm apparently wrong. I guess I don't wanna go nowhere, don't wanna do things to no avail. I can elaborate on this but it doesn't matter. Just that losing everything sucks.

I don't wanna say anything much more cuz i'm not even supposed to be here. Except to confirm eCR. Lousy timeslots.

Shed me some light. Without trust, is there anything else to say?

STAY CLEAR.

IT'S LIKE 12.50AM AND I'M TYPING THIS WITH A GLASS OF HALF-GONE MOUNT GAY RUM NEAT. (Btw cal, this rum tastes good. Share with you soon.) I JUST BOUGHT THAT BOTTLE WITH CALVIN TO MAKE TIRAMISU OKAY. AND ENDED UP DRINKING IT AS A START. AND SLIGHTLY BLASTING BREAK THE ICE BY BRITNEY SPEARS.

I'M SO PISSED OFF NOW. THE CAPS LOCK KEY ISN'T MY BEST FRIEND BUT I'M SO FRIGGIN ENRAGED. OH MY POOR KEYBOARD AS WELL- HITTING ONTO IT SO HARD MAY BE PART OF ANGER MANAGEMENT THOUGH NOT THE BEST.

HOW CAN ANYONE BE SO THICK-SKINNED?! I mean coming home feeling hungry is bad enough. Wanting to eat at 12am is not my kinda thing (Well, I try to most of the time at least). Sinful, you know. I thought of eating my milk pocky and found it missing. Okay fine, so I really expected the person to own up since everyone was in the living room. But NOOOOO. Of cuz my youngest sis defended her stand on not eating it. That was obviously left with my second sis. Crap. Okay fine. She tried to appease me with a i-pass-you-my-cuttlefish-you-can-have-abit-thing. SORRY I WOULDN'T BUY IT CUZ I'VE GOT MY CRAVING. I'm totally enraged.

Swallowed and cooled down after a meiji green tea ice-cream. And lotus paste bun. And cuppa milo dinosaur. I don't know why but i thought of looking for the liquor chocolate that was half eaten by calvin and i. No present for guessing it right. YES! IT WAS MISSING. AND AGAIN, SHE DIDN'T ADMIT. She just went down to 7-11 to get me a strawberry pocky (btw, i eat milk pocky much more than strawberry. I do eat the latter just really really seldom. I don't eat chocolate pocky. Weird for a chocolate lover?) and a Cadbury Crunchie. SORRY once again cuz i swore off that since secondary school. I had phobia of the honeycomb. Ate far too much last time. SORRY MONEY DOESN'T BUY EVERYTHING. Thanks for the thought. BUT I'M NOT APPEASED. I'M NOT FORGIVING YOU YET OKAY. NOT EVEN A "I'M SORRY". SHE JUST THREW THE STUFF ONTO THE COUNTER. WTF.

And i told Calvin that i would bring it the next time I go over to his place (sorry, many times already). This will never happen with the same bar of chocolate. Now's a BIGGER APOLOGY CUZ IT'S GONE LIKE SERIOUSLY NO MORE EVEN IF I WANNA SNEAK A TINY BIT OF CHOCO OFF THE BAR. RAAAARRRRRRrrrRRRRRrrRRR.

My youngest sis came to the fridge to find that her pack of milk also MISSING. WTF. TADAH. YOU'RE RIGHT- SHE TOOK OUR STUFF AND NOT MAKE A SINGLE NOISE. NOT EVEN AN APOLOGY. WTF WTF. IT'S REALLY KNNBCCB. (PS: This is the 2nd time in my ENTIRE life that i use this.)

SHE ALWAYS WARN EVERYONE NOT TO TAKE HER THINGS. SHE'LL DEMAND AND TELL US OFF AND TICK US OFF AND BE SUCH A TYRANT. THAT SNOBBISH THING. I DON'T WANNA SAY ANYTHING CUZ WELL, ONE CHILLI IN THE HOUSE IS ENOUGH. YOU DON'T NEED THE PERPETUAL SCREAMINGS OF 2 CHILLIS. I'M MORE MATURED TO BE A PEACE-MAKER THAN A HOUSE-DESTROYER. *Rolls eyes* THE WHOLE HOUSE WILL COLLAPSE. LITERALLY. REALLY. IT WILL SUCK BIG TIME TO BE EVEN HOME. YET SHE'S DONE IT AGAIN- SHE TAKES OUR STUFF AND NOT EVEN APOLOGIZE OKAY. UNREASONABLE HORRIFYING BITCH. WTF ARGH.

WHAT'S THE BEST THING? MY MOM CALLED ME A TROUBLEMAKER?! WTH. I WANTED TO EAT MY STUFF YET I AM THE TROUBLEMAKER HERE?! WHAT HAS THE WORLD COME TO?! THIS IS UTTERLY RIDICULOUS! THERE'S NOTHING MORE ATROCIOUS THAN THIS!!!! ARGH!!!!!!

It may seemed that i'm making a big fuss outta everything. But i've not made a single noise or complained for a long time. She'll take my candies, chocolates, food, everything. I don't want history to repeat itself. There're just food and it's good that they make you happy. Even if it's like half the bottle or container. Okay fine. As long as you're happy, i'm mostly okay with it. BUT IT'S LIKE 3 CONSECUTIVE ITEMS!!!! (It's just not my night really. I can't count now. Isit 3?) Somehow, it's pretty coincidental that I would think of the missing stuff huh? But this was really uncalled for cuz i'm really tired after a whole day and after a episode of damsel-in-distress just now. Alone to pick my dad up at some ulu bus interchange for the Malacca- Singapore coaches. OMFG.

Even thinking of the day's happening wouldn't help to calm me down. (i'll blog about it like later in the day; not now) This is really bad. Even repacking the fridge didn't help okay!!

Oh, I recalled another reason why i was a lil cross. I came back to find that she was on my pc. I asked her nicely if she's gonna be on the com for long doing her project-related stuff. SHE DIDN'T HAVE THE COURTEOUSY TO EVEN REPLY ME. Instead, gave me that shuddup-or-i-will-shove-the-mouse-into-your-mouth-look. AND SHE HAS HER OWN LAPPIE OKAY?!

I'm not usually that picky or choleric or fastidious. I'm infuriated at such indignantly disgusting attitude of hers!! - that I am almight and always right. Ultra big ego. Poor guy who's chasing her really. Pitiful souls. Okay, I admit that was pretty nasty of me. =x

I'M SO OUTTA MY MIND NOW. I'm trying to control myself. Ultra annoyed. This is far worse than I thought. Really.

Seriously, even if she buys me the exact same chocolate (that's if she actually know which one! cuz the chocolate was left boxless in the fridge), i will throw it back at her (since I foresee that she would 99% throw it at me/ onto the counter AGAIN. That 1% is her being seriously apologetic about it which i highly doubt- make it 99.9% to 0.1% then). I'm not being nasty cuz i have my reason. If you know me well enough, I'm a pretty sentimental person and it's really tough for me to let go of my possession cuz every piece of them mean something to me/ reminds me of the events linked to it. You get the drift. So that chocolate bar will mean a different thing altogether. Then again, why the hypothesis? Cuz it'll NEVER happen. She'll NEVER go the mile to make me that happy.

*Thinks* So why should i get her many stuff from BKK??- Oh I mentioned that I was going to get my sisters many things and that they would probably be thrilled! Why not make another 2 people smile and excited? Fine, no more list from her. Why should I even in the first place?

I think I'm too nice in general. That's why people take me for granted. I shall be a bitch. I shall be a pain in the ass fussy nitpicky or maybe a reticent snobbish ice princess. Maybe the latter sounds better. So i can save my saliva and breath. And save my energy for more productive events/ stuff. I shall be nice to those who deserves my nice-ness. Whahaha. It's an eye for an eye. So be nice to me and i'll only then be nice to you. Evilness!

Sorry Cal, I'll grab another bar of liquor chocolate. That was really yummy though.
On the other hand, I'll throw in the tiramisu okay? (: Wonder why i can still put that smiley face at the back when i'm still sooo angry. Be my guinea pig?

yoghurt = ♥

And i spent the whole morning and early afternoon grocery shopping with my mom. Had a simply lunch with her but was lovely- cooked drunken prawns (those live ones we just bought!), made hot buns and bread and rose apples. (:

Dessert = chilled happy me.

I'm actually grateful and relieved that chelle and I confirmed the tix. What's left is for the directroom personnel to get back with the hotel confirmation! Yay. After the lonnnngggggg procrastination, we're finally a plane away from BKK. Wonderful!

And i realised how fast time actually flies. It's like Sunday today and tml is Vesak day. Tues wed thurs FRIDAY! Then sat. And wed fri sat again. Hmm.

Maybe i should hit the showers to chill first. Okay, so bathe and drive. Sounds good for now.

Ben3 xiao2 jie3 xian4 zai4 man2 lei4, xin1 qing2 bu4 shi4 hen2 hao3.

ciaos. enjoy the song. (:
5.15pm cherri~out.

lemme break the ice.

What a rude thing anyone can do! I was too engrossed by the exams to bother then. The least one can do is acknowledge the other party's presence; not the shock look on ya face (pretty pathetic) and turn away like you've just seen a ghost. Omfg that is the rudest thing anyone has done in my entire life. So offensive! =X So crossed by it now. Then again, i shouldn't be cuz you don't matter to me that much for me to put a thought to it anyway.

Maths- I wanted to just stand up and walk out of the exam hall halfway through the paper. That was disgusting. Argh. There goes my distinction.

POA is next on friday. Maybe i should seriously get outta house to study. Or at least not cope myself in the house and tv eat slp. Such vicious cycle should definitely be stopped! Duncha all agree?







Camwhoring when i get bored.

Like really bored.

Tell me about it. hurhurhur.












I like this photo. Yay. What we do in zouk's washroom. ;)

Sunday was not that bad. Thank YOU for the time and effort (to even dress up! And i seriously think shirts look gd on ya (: ). I think it was nice to have you around. (minus the excessive use of mp3 and psp =x) All in all, it was nice to be there for both events, spending time with ya. Can't wait to spend more time with ya. and ya 17 days left before ORD. And the clubbing marathon. and the Thailand trip. and loads more. yay yay yay. hearts you.

Gonna hit the sack now. Acks.

Cherri~out.

it's gna be me, you and the dancefloor.

And i look forward, not back.
I know my bad habit of dwelling in the past but i know better to remember and reflect on them.
Sweet bittersweet memories. I think more importantly, it's to think back and smile.

Live each day to its fullest without regrets.
That's my motto in life. But maybe maybe maybe there's nothing wrong with thinking back and have that tinge of regret. Well, I've done stuff that I'm not proud of, yet if i can contradict myself- i would have regretted them.

See, that's what i mean by not dwelling in the past. I rant and rave and forget so that i've got my stats paper tml! Oh, econs wasn't good today. In fact, I felt worse than prelims. Moving on...

I'm gonna live it all. I live for my loved ones but most of all, myself. Sometimes I think back and wonder how my life would have been if i am a church-goer. Well, partly the fallen back part in me sometimes emerges and haunts me. How a terrible person i am. (On the other hand, i don't think i'm THAT bad. well, vices apart, how much can i be THAT far away from perfect. =X )

I took my good ole bible that day. That black cover King James edition. The one most Christians don't use cuz it's difficult to decipher the true meaning at times. New King James is the edition most use, yet i feel that some meanings get lost on the way when someone interprets it; differently like how opinions are. Well, flipping through the verses reminded me of the days when i listen to the pastor preach. And how i felt that i'm so loved and lucky. Yet once i step outta church, it's a different scene yet again. Back then, my parents objected. And how worldly possession were considered pretty sinful. Sometimes, i get pulled between everything. Contradictions in life, they were. I decided then to stop going.

And so, I've just shared something that EVERYONE i know, doesn't know.

But, i'm beginning to look forward with hope. (:
Partly cuz of the ending of misery exams. Start of the holidays. Clubbing marathon. Trips. Outings. Shopping. Catching ups. Fun. And of course, work! For the burnt pocket after the formers. :( But hey, money can't buy certain possessions in life. It's materialistic, admit it. Anyone got lobangs update me okayy?

Burnt pockets, can be sewn.
Torn hearts, can be healed.
The difference? Time cannot heal all wounds; they cannot be healed totally; Scarred, i'm afraid.

Ending on a high note, i'm totally looking forward to the fun. Like seriously fun fun fun.
Travel without my parents. Like omg. I'm ecstatic! Yay to Ching, Chelle and Calvin. Hey, wth, they all start with C. Cheers, to mine too. Ahahaha.

Dates to look forward to that are closer? Tomorrow and Sunday. Maybe Saturday too. (:
Cuz i'm spending them with ya. (: (:

P/S: I think colours make reading easier for ya guy. No??
P/S/S (or is it P/P/S??:) Thank YOU for ya phonecall last night. Trigger happy. =D

Oh yes, i forgot to add that i love my youngest sis, Sherri. She doesn't know how much i do only. I get that tingling thrill whenever i visit her at her workplace.

Like she knows my all-time fav: whip cream-in-a-cup. Tog with my drinks.

Well, as seen above. Topped with choco powder or caramel or sometimes, choco syrup.

And she knows my favourite drinks: Caramel macchiato (hot and cold), green tea latte (esp frap!) The one here is hot and upon request, with lotsa foam! Even the small cup is foam and a lil milk. =D

How often does a sibling know another that much? Not frequent! And if you do, you're lucky. Like me. ;)

With love,

Cherri

(While waiting for my darling sis to end shift, camwhoring is sometimes unavoidable, i would say!)

drive-thru.

And when i have the chance to drive out for supper/ coffee or tea or teh tarek session/ meet up and chit chat session, there isn't anyone to go with. Omg. =(

It's like a one in a million chance to use the car without super tight control. Cuz my dad went M'sia and mommy dearest is more relaxed on me using. Except the petrol, yes, it is expensive.

I wasted my day away by enjoying my tv and i. this relationship is really growing! i headed to orchard for half an hour only?! Get stuff and left. omg. Drove my mom to her office (she left her hp there) and then to tamp (for my sis to pass ez link card to her fren). And back home.

SaD. Friday night wasted. haha. it's been looooonggg...

Zoukout. probably its swansong facing the sea at Sentosa. Excited?

Sat morning econs lesson... then make-up POA lesson till 5pm. Kill me. it's like my thurs man! Full day!!

**Ge, i think we need the coffee session more than anyone!! =D yay come back fast!
**Yilin, have fun there in Taiwan! Kenneth, take gd care of her alrighty?

cherri, out

macs

Fancy blogging in macs with this wireless@SG thing. lol. And sundae. Talk abt sundae, went for dinner with Yilin and Freesia last nite at the italian restaurant at the airport. Lasagne was good. Jus pricey. Had fries with mcflurry for dessert. Lol. Sat had dinner with family at Long beach to celebrate my sisters' bdays. But was a lousy dinner anw. sigh.

Feels pretty dumb. Anw, my batt isn't helping- 7mins left.

One and a half hr of driving jus now sucked. >.<>

7.15am once more tml. This time round in the circuit. Boo. Wednesday...!

Tues- 12.30am:
My comp went into hibernation jus now. Lol. Oh wells... My sister is one lucky ass. Gosh, fancy having a 390 bucks coach bag (discounted!) AND close to 2 grand dSLR. The green eye monster has caught me. =( Who wouldn't, then again? Talk about being pampered. MY bday ang pows were nothing near her presents. =( sob sob. And finally, my digicam will be back with me, after being misused, spoilt and "well" taken cared of, now being disposed off her "asset" list. Booooo!!

Rants rants rants... I'm full of rants. Too much to think of for this lil brain and frame. Relatively. Driving, work then dinner appt (oh, and the mgm that i am not able to attend =( ). Wed is the BIG thing. Omg. Pamela, Jun, Freesia, Hafiz and Huiyi. Soon to be Michelle and I. Yesyes? Oh great, here the ranting machine starts all over again. Oh, at least the trip up and down parkway wasn't wasted. Sherri liked her present. Heehee. *To whom this concerns: "So, idea for your next girlfren? ;)" Thanks for listening to my rants... and more rants. Getting things off the chest takes a LOOOOOOONG time.

Once more, the weather this morning was threatening... Din swim =( So SAD!! ArGh.

And, burning my wkends by running errands with mommy has burnt me out badly! i'm freaking tired out!! talk about lack of rest..and sleep!! And this is so not helping when it's 1.15am alr.

And what's with families and their new teles? HD TELES?! Mine's the sofa. hurhur. And soon, my new additional desk, hopefully! *evil laughter*

OH wells, gotta be up early. Will have to tuck in soon, after my bath. Muahahha. Love.

My 6am alarm.

Addicted to ice-cream. Having it EVERYDAY. Nearly every meal. Talk about sweet tooth. Perpetual. boo.

cherri~ out. Had this photo taken during a mtg. For some SRC stuff. Lol.

BleAhx.

Driving sucks for now.
What else can i say?


Handball was fun. Serene centre is pretty empty. Island creamery's banana split is nice.

Time spent with ppl i love... i care... Thank you.

Some photos to offset the past lousy days...

The twist that spoilt my photo. redhairband. xD and the ice cream.

The cherri with the cherry.
(from the black forest cake. >.<)

Pretty tired out now. 2.30am. crap. music, chatting, poa is gd. nahx...jus poa to figure out.
=(

Learns...

I learnt today...

Tough times don't last, tough men do!

What doesn't kill you, can only make you stronger.

Today isn't my day. Well, sleeping late and waking early isn't the best combination one can start her day with. Circuit driving was lousy. School was incomprehensivable. Tuition lessons were torturous. The kids don't seem to wanna attend lesson, while the parents are just concerned and worried.

Burning my weekends for them too. Sat AND Sun.

Looking forward to Salsa later... To zouk on fri... To Chinatown and celebration. Sweet...
Oh, to cousin's bbq on the 13th.

Not looking forward to waking up zombified to teach on sat morning, back to back tuition session. Good gracious. Oh, and fri's maths test. Esp when i'm not prepared.

I want my chocolate... but 1 month, that's all i give.

Needa study soon!! But i can't seem to find the time. CRAP.

Jun: Thanks for the company.
Kenny: Thanks for the always quotable you. Please don't get too emo at times. Cheers =)

Right... Always restless me... okok...

Cherri, out~