Thursday, 18 December 2008
Reflects.
Now that i'm recovering and recuperating, my fried brain cells are regenerating and i'm feeling slightly better.
Anw, 2008 hasn't been the best year for most. And instead of sharing why hasn't it been good for me, i'll recap why it's otherwise. (New year's resolutions shall be done soon... not in this post. Too much for the brain to handle. hurhur.)
- I met many people who changed my life.
- I've grown up within this year.
- I matured more than I ever did in the past; all the events made me so.
- I learnt and found my passion in dance once more.
- I see the importance of studying way in advance.
- I appreciate everything more than i'll ever will.
- I met you and fell in and out and lingered in love.
- Well, basically, i met you.
I wanna meet and catch up with those i haven't do so yet okay? Call me!
Oh, The Mr. Men Show is so cute! So colourful and cute charaters. I love cartoons. And jazz piano.
Oh, my house has been really windy. So cooling, rather chilled, that i can hardly do much without my blankie.
Wishlist!
*Dresses *Handbag *Chocolates *Movies *Eyeshadows *Ear studs *Books *Dior Addict 2 *Colourful stuff!
Merry Christmas to all in advance (;
Love, cherri.
Friday, 14 November 2008
Dances.
take and sink me into a trance.
A sea of beautifuls
Shrink all worries into miniscule.
Social dancing has never been more enjoyable than before.
I see the beauty of swaying and timely moves to the music.
Observe how pretty and magnificant a swing of a hand can lead to a lovely move.
A small movement of one can lead to a consequence of the partner.
Latin dances amaze me even more; i appreciate all greater than before.
People tell me i've improved alot; there is alot to continue improving still!
Through Salsa, I've learnt alot- to love, to trust, to tolerate, to be patient, to smile, to live.
To indulge in the lovely beats, i've came to learn to forget other stuff for the nite.
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Oh how i wanna move on...
oh how i wanna stop certain period of time.
oh how i wanna tell you how much i miss you.
oh how i wanna tell you the irony and paradox... ...
I wanna tell so many different things to so many different individuals.
To each and every of you.
But more imptly, i wanna thank you all.
Cuz without each of you, my live will be different from what it is now.
Tuesday, 28 October 2008
lucky
Will you?
They don't know how long it takes. Waiting for a love like this. Every time we say goodbye. I wish we had one more kiss. I'll wait for you I promise you, I will.
On a side note,
Singapore International Salsa Festival (SISF) held on 24th - 26th October 2008 at Downtown East was such a great event. I enjoyed myself alot despite the lethargic me. Workshops start at 0930 and end at 1700. Night party and performances start again at 2000 and end at 0300. Yes, it's crazy but fun kinda crazy. I din manage to stay till that late for the 3 nights. But i cant wait to attend next yr's (: yay. thanks for the lovely companionship.
Sunday, 5 October 2008
reflection.
I know you're not doing well there too. Like me.
It's with or without you. It's like with or without me.
Someone once asked me "Do you think he'll be happier with you... or without you in his life?"
I really can't answer. I can't give an absolute answer. Cuz it takes two to clap. Cuz it is an obvious pain. And Mariah Carey's Bye Bye wrenches my heart whenever i listen to it on my pebble. Many a times i wanna tear. I wanna cry so hard that i hope tears can patch every pain that we're going through. But i know better that it wouldn't.
Holding back tears is probably one of the worst things to do. Like how saying bye bye is. I am reluctant to do so.
It's so difficult to type this, esp when im in the library and tears welled up, blinding my sight yet i dn wanna have my tears roll down. I'm a big girl now; i must think and act like one.
There are alot of questions in my mind now. But i know, focus on them will not help. Directing my energy on the positive stuff will.
It's challenging to make improvements- especially self-improvements. Cuz it means admitting that you're not perfect; that you have to go through thorough adjustments sometimes. But changes are necessities. No matter how tough it gonna be, i know i have to go through them... To be a better person, to be a stronger me and for all those around me too.
Through critisms and negative experiences, I have to brave through them all to see the rainbow. And maybe after then, i'll find the pot of gold. But i can't predict what the future is. But resolute i have to be. RESOLUTE. DISCIPLINED. RESPONSIBLE. I have to grow up even more. That i know.
But I only know one thing right now:
That i hope to see you happy. That you'll be truly happy.
I want to be there for you... But if it's tough for you, then i'll rather not. See i dislike such a dilemma.
Only time will tell... Just follow you heart...
With or without me.
With or without you.
Sunday, 21 September 2008
contradictions.
i'll be living in denial.
in self- deception.
in the grey.
rock is the new rnb.
pub is the new club.
Still, the heart falters.
life full of contradictions.
dammit.
paradoxes of life it is instead.>
Thursday, 18 September 2008
My Baby You
As i look into your eyes
i see all the reasons why
my life's worth a thousand skies
you're the simplest love i've known
and the purest one i'll own
know you'll never be alone
[chorus:]my baby you
are the reason i could fly
and 'cause of you
i don't have to wonder why
baby you
there's no more just getting by
you're the reason i feel so alive
though these words i say are true
they still fail to capture you
as mere words can only do
how do i explain that smile
and how it turns my world around
keeping my feet on the ground
[repeat chorus]
i will soothe you if you fall
i'll be right there if you call
you're my greatest love of all
[repeat chorus]
arianna i feel so alive
purple.
but you mean the world to someone."
You'll never know...
how much you can influence a person's life.
Likewise, you'll not know how much a person is to you,
until you realize how much you miss him/ her.
Wednesday, 10 September 2008
=(
As much as i wanna tear, i know i shouldn't.
At least not in front of anyone.
Cuz deep down it's painful.
Just that no one knows... ...
Friday, 5 September 2008
Loof.
Had PSA level 2 today at FJT till 5pm. Boring but essential stuff i reckon. Well, went down to Calvin's place with muffins- blueberries and double choco (:
Was a short yet enjoyable time spent tog before i headed down town again.
Thank you baby. I think you're pretty good at music speed and they're really tastefully edited!
Had dinner at Aerin's at Raffles City with Marc. Appetizer was mushroom n cherry tomatoes on baguette. Nice! Spaghetti prawns was nice though slightly oily. Dessert was warm chocolate cake with ice cream. It was decided double choco fudge cake after tossing coin (on his iphone) though. Anw, headed to Loof at Odeon Tower.
Omg pretty neat stuff! Ngak & Clement are cool acoustic guitarists and vocals. Swooned. Cosmopolitan and Singapore Sling were classics while Marc had Long Island Tea and The Tom Yum. Very unique Tom Yum drink if ya ask me! No, it wasn't an acquired taste. Refreshing actually. Salmon pizza was goooooooood too! Smoke salmon is sth i havent ate in a while. Anw it's the ambience and company that made the night enjoyable too. Thanks Marc (: yea i should get my salsa level up.
Anw, i'm nodding off already.... I've got no photos cuz i lent my dad the cybershot. And fisheye had new film. it'll be out next time rarr.
Till then xoxo, cherri
Wednesday, 3 September 2008
movie time~
Wall- e was alright-boring i guess. Caught it after my product training with my "bodyguards"- Alvin and Zul.
Forgetting Sarah Marshall was slightly better with more hilarious scenes plus romance. For a midnight movie, it isn't too bad i reckon.
Clone Wars was pretty hilarious. Wanted to catch Bad Habits but couldn't make it in time cuz of Salsa. Even if i own a Ferrari, i couldn't rush in time to cine anw. So after Kaya butter toast, eggs and milo, Calvin and I headed down to The Cathy from Kallang Leisure Park. I love driving people around. I can condone tuning of radio and air-con switchings etc but not nitpicking of errors. I'm really not perfect. And i do stuff with at least minimum confidence.
"You're outnumbered!" "1...2..."
"Why.....!!"
lol. anw i saw the Loof webby. It's cute! (: Give it a shot soon yea?
I know i will =D
Anw as much as i wanna post more stuff, my eyes are failing on me. gotta work later at 9 still. 2 hours of slp plus long day = tragic. anw anw anw... mooncakes yummmm heee.
ciaos, cherri
Monday, 1 September 2008
heartbreaker.
I don't know really!
I have to check later.
Calvin refused to tell me. Partly cuz he promised me not to let the cat outta the bag.
Then again, it's killing me. I'm filled with anxiety. And to make matters worse, i've got 2 tests to sit for later and i'm not pretty done with it. rarr.
I shall sleep on the academic part for now i guess.
Comex was crazy. But i'm waiting for my acer aspire one. The clamshell white is what singnet offers only. Cuz i thought the sapphire blue is actually pretty too. So i ain't that colour bias as well =) 1.60Ghz is really slow compared to 2.0 or even 2.4Ghz now. oh well, intel atom is different from its counterpart i guess. 1GB is really small boo!!! even expand, it wouldnt be anything as big as 3GB. =( It looks like the Eee-PC of Asus really! 8.9" is small. oh well 1.26kg is gooood though. I can hardly hide my excitement as Calvin can tell you. I harp on it everytime i see him (though till date it's only twice). Been on a crazy eating spree. And body shop spree. Whichever. What i'm saying is that i'm growing fat.
Great, mid-autumn festival is coming soon! I wanna get the champagne mooncake from Raffles hotel, lotus seed on from Li Bai, Bakerzin's alcoholic version. what else's nice? (: intro to me!
Well, school's gonna start. And i shall spend more time with you and not "neglect" you like how i did this whole wk k? i wanna spend more quality time with ya. i miss you~
and so... another busy week starts... energizeeeeeeeee!
ciaos, cherri
Saturday, 9 August 2008
it's been a good half a yr...
be it individually or tog, we will survive... ...
ganbatte to us yup (:
18th n 19th...
Happy 6th months to us <3
I love you.
It's been half a year already and how time flies. Thank you for everything! For what we have and do not have. For what we've gone through, thick and thin... Say short, it isn't that short. Say that it's long, it really isn't long as well. But looking forward to, well, more quality time with you. And to know you and us better, okays? (: love you. hearts you (: (:
Sorry i've been really busy so nth's been uploaded into facebook or friendster or even my own com. and ive been really tired and ill too. gonna do everything during or after the weekend. cuz there're more events upcoming and i'm soooo looking forward to them. And they are namely:
Sat:
'Money not enough 2' movie and lunch outing with family
spending time with you!
Sun:
Annual bbq at cousins'
Yup. i shall go hit the sack soon for the day ahead! Ciaos.
cherri~out
Monday, 28 July 2008
Sometimes When We Touch
You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you
Chorus: **And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you till I die
Till we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides**
Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth
**chorus**
At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly
At times I understand you
And I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by
At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again
**chorus**
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Shadings that i like to do- to keep my mind relaxed.
The lyrics of the song is really sweet and i hold it dear...
And somehow i really like this snapshot.
And i loved that moment cuz you're sooo sweet and you made me feel so so special. and i would have melted right there and then if the spotlight wasn't on us. (as from fb) And no one will ever understand how i feel then but i hope you do. cuz no one can steal that feeling from us, no money can buy that priceless memory. and then, i wanted to give ya a biggg hug. trigger happy.
Sitting at my favourite coffee place
On a Sunday afternoon
Sipping my latte; watching faces
Thinking will this all end soon.
Lyrics from the latest song
Beautiful as it may seem
Got me pondering if I’m wrong
When will I awake from this dream.
I really want the best for you. Happiness and memories cannot be replaced.
Life is a rollercoaster with its ups and downs.
Without the ups, we feel low.
Yet without the downs,
We’ll not appreciate the good times.
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides... ...
Thursday, 24 July 2008
sexysexysexy
It's really amazing sometimes to hear how you actually requested for me to be forced into the world on the same day as you only to be totally scolded by the doctor =S Hence i'm on the 22nd while you- the 24th.
Reminisce- that's what we do. And that's what my mother does best. Hurhurhur.
Nonetheless, i love you both very much. Sometimes i make you angry and worried, others i make you cry. May you have a good day ahead. (and i hope the stock market will fall to its lowest today so you can buy them all up. told you to buy two days ago already =S don't believe me. hmph.)
Aight aight aight. 4.12am. Like how we always drag our feet to the cab after phuture. muahahha.
Supper with Calvin & Jason was not too bad. Popeye is still the same after 3- 4 yrs. Buttermilk biscuit with strawberry jam is nice. muahaha for someone who doesn't take jam, having said the former is queer =S Talk about camwhoring, i'm not the best at it =X hints hints. Driving with the windows wound down is real cooling. love.
And i had a very nice birthday celebration. thank you all. (: Will blog about it when i've got more time on hand. muarks.
And she listens to rnb all the time to stay at home on wed, fri and sat. Blast the earpieces to stop her itch rarr.
Friday, 18 July 2008
You light up my life (:
Everyday has been happening. Shall blog abt them soon. After i get the images up from my camera. Procrastination =x
Cherri*
Monday, 14 July 2008
<3
Tuesday, 8 July 2008
get it shawty.
When a GIRL is not arguing... she is thinking deeply.
When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions... she is wondering how long you will be around.
When a GIRL answers " I'm fine ", after a few seconds... she is not at all fine.
When a GIRL stares at you... she is wondering why you are lying.
When a GIRL lays on your chest... she is wishing for you to be hers forever.
When a GIRL wants to see you everyday... she wants to be pampered.
When a GIRL says " I love you "... she means it. When a GIRL says " I miss you " ... no one in this world can miss you more than that.
Life only comes around once make sure u spend it with the right person ....
Find a guy who...
- calls you beautiful instead of hot.
- calls you back when you hang up on him.
- will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
- kisses your forehead.
- wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.
- holds your hand in front of his friends.
- is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.
- turns to his friends and says, " That's her!!"
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So sweet, isn't it?
Caught It's a boy girl thing with Calvin on Sunday. It's a pretty nice show. Till the part where the dad totally shocked the girl by giving her a gown for her prom and encouraging her to attend it. It never fails to leave me thinking how my dad dotes on me and how lucky i really am. That i teared =x
Last week has been eventful.
Mon & Tues- Salsa perf for UOL FOD.
Vanessa's bday at dbl o.
Thurs- Suntan with girlies.
Fri- Matthew's bday celebration.
Sat- Dinner with my volunteer gang.
BBQ at yilin's
Cosfest @ downtown east.
Wanted to put this all up on sunday night. But blogspot has been a bitch. Couldn't upload any photos. RarR. And just i waited for the photos to
load till i fell aslp in front of the com.
Thanks all who made my week enjoyable. This one will be better (:
Cherri~out
Monday, 30 June 2008
Built to last.
I've looked for love in stranger places,
but never found someone like you.
Someone whose smile makes me feel I've been holding back,
and now there's nothing I can't do.
'Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
but most of all it's built to last.
All of our friends saw from the start.
So why didn't we believe it too?
Whoa yeah, now look where we are.
You're in my heart now.
And there's no escaping it for you.
'Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
but most of all it's built to last.
Walking on the hills that night with those fireworks and candlelight
You and I were made to get love right
'Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
but most of all it's built to last.
'Cause you are the sun in my universe,
Considered the best when we've felt the worst
And most of all it's built to last.
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My trolley of snacks =p
Snacks haven!!
Pocky- my new love!
Some of the Pocky products that i adore...
Not in the picture- Milk, pizza, strawberry and dessert pocky =D
I like the blurry nostalgia effect.
A day at home. After eating the whole house for the past few days =x
I'm thinking about plans for my 21st birthday. My dream is to have a poolside party. Can you believe it? Not chalet, not hotel. But a poolside party with my friends, enjoying some fun and good time tog. The latter wouldn't be too tough. It's the former that is the biggest challenge now. Where to find a pool to hold a party? =x I'm weighing the pros and cons for the options now. Apparently my house is too small to invite many people. HmPhH!! It's 3 weeks more to my big day. ShEesH. Thinking thinking thinking. Oh well, we'll see about it.
i miss you. do you miss me too?
weekend!
My weekend has been a real whirlwind of activities.
It started off with me trying to bake a sponge cake which failed tragically.
Then a short swim/ suntan session with Calvin. (Thank you for accompanying me + psp)
Dinner with the Unity of Clubbers (as what Chelle calls it) at Cafe Iguana.
I really wanna put up all the food and drinks photos but the loading takes too long and my euro 08 can't wait that long! Ahahaha.
Sat- Wedding lunch banquet... =) i dn have a photo of the bride and groom omg i cant believe myself. i've got the videos only crappy me. Dinner at Sun with Moon with Yu Cong, Zhi Yang, Yilin and Freesia before heading down to Zouk to meet the love birds.
lovely orchids in Trader's Hotel! (:
Camwhoring...
Woke up this morning to hit Macs to study M9. I could barely keep my eyes open. Dinner again at Sun with Moon with my family. Seriously, i'll update the food log soon.
Euro 08, here i come!! Go Spain =D
cherri~~out~~~
<0442> YAY SPAIN!! ;)
but i feel that Germany had a better control of the game and ball play just that luck wasnt with them. What a waste really. Hmm. oh well zzz for me now gotta wake to study and salsa. Performance in sch on tues and wed. gasps! ciaos.
Friday, 27 June 2008
stop and stare.
Here's my first try... Butter cake!
Mixed reactions to this. But the next one will be better! =D
And a few "rock" cakes =x
Erm. yeah, stoned.
Well, it's a fortune to be able to eat. Esp when it's good delicious stuff (:
Cottage Pies serves nice nice nice stuff. Can't wait to go back for their other pastries! Oh reminds me of Big Ben's =S
Heart cheesecake.
Cinammon pastry.
My marmie's chocolate praline cake. I like the rice crispy + milk chocolate base only.
Met Yilin, Freesia and Zhi Yang tog with Jason and Calvin at Katong's Hong Kong Tea House for supper. Ooh still as pretty as ever- Yilin's gna be here till 14th July only.
See the two holes on the bun? v clever calvin- it looked like me =S
Don't ask me why.
Last sunday was my maternal grandpa's 87th birthday! Still as strong as ever! =D
Sleep deprived. I must sleep longer. ahaha.
Cherri~out
Tuesday, 24 June 2008
Shut up- is it really alot to ask for?
I have overwhelmingly alot in my mind right now- I thought I could take everything that you said last night and be positive and act positively about it. But I'm apparently wrong. I guess I don't wanna go nowhere, don't wanna do things to no avail. I can elaborate on this but it doesn't matter. Just that losing everything sucks.
I don't wanna say anything much more cuz i'm not even supposed to be here. Except to confirm eCR. Lousy timeslots.
Shed me some light. Without trust, is there anything else to say?
Monday, 23 June 2008
closer.
I mean seriously, ups and downs- in a matter of hours. And i guess i'm too old for such a thing. I need to stabilize myself. Even a bit will do some good. I can't be in the dark guessing all the time. Shed me some light. I need to talk to you- tell me how you feel and all. I'm not as good a telepathy or reader, really. I guess you're someone whom i talk the least and that's not doing any good.
So will you give me some time- that we can just sit and talk over coffee? Like really just talk and share our thoughts? I know it's unlike ur psp or dota- full of entertainment and fun. Don't you wanna tell me how you feel and your concerns too? I'm kinda tired guessing why i made you angry. I guess it's likewise how i make you worry. We dno how each other feels and thinks simply cuz we don't tell one another.
I think fun has to die down a little. I can't be selfish and jeopardize everything in the name of fun. And maybe music too.
Tues after my test? Wed before night?
Tuesday, 17 June 2008
big ben's.
(Taken with my new cam T300. love my dad.)
Lovely interior.
Yummy beef and cheese
And my window seat.
Will come here more for the food. When i'm in the right mood to appreciate more of it all.
me~ out.
Sunday, 15 June 2008
Friday, 13 June 2008
no air.
Shepherd's Pie at Durty Nelly's good (: Shirley Temple (though as the expert says "it's just
7up + lime juice + grenadine syrup") is a pretty awesome change! Didn't realise how an Irish pub that i walked past sooo many times has such lovely food and ambience. Marina sq still has another pub called Paulaner for me to venture.
I love catch up sessions. Today's was made enjoyable by hongming. It's been a long time since we've met and talked. Hope you'll pick yourself back on track real fast okay, hongming? =)
I shall go find Big Ben's later if i'm not lazy hurhur. pies pies pies~ despite that, dunkin doughnuts we brought back from bkk is realy good =D hee.
I was looking through the photos we took in bkk and i really really miss bkk. absolutely.
Someone asked me "when was the last time u both told each other that u loved each other?".
Maybe you reader should answer that. cuz i feel that one should tell another ily only when you truly mean it. that's what i believe and practise (:
nitez world
cherri~out
Wednesday, 11 June 2008
love in the first degree.
Till then,
xoxo cherri
Monday, 2 June 2008
Though i hope what i thought of were all generalizations on my part, i'm certain some are true. Deep within me, i know i can only hope time will fade the effects of it. Or maybe, only time will tell. Maybe i should just kill myself and die...