Built to last.

Built To Last- Melee
I've looked for love in stranger places,
but never found someone like you.

Someone whose smile makes me feel I've been holding back,
and now there's nothing I can't do.

'Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
but most of all it's built to last.

All of our friends saw from the start.
So why didn't we believe it too?
Whoa yeah, now look where we are.
You're in my heart now.
And there's no escaping it for you.

'Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
but most of all it's built to last.

Walking on the hills that night with those fireworks and candlelight
You and I were made to get love right

'Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
but most of all it's built to last.

'Cause you are the sun in my universe,
Considered the best when we've felt the worst
And most of all it's built to last.
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My trolley of snacks =p
Snacks haven!!


Pocky- my new love!
Some of the Pocky products that i adore...
Not in the picture- Milk, pizza, strawberry and dessert pocky =D









I like the blurry nostalgia effect.









A day at home. After eating the whole house for the past few days =x





I'm thinking about plans for my 21st birthday. My dream is to have a poolside party. Can you believe it? Not chalet, not hotel. But a poolside party with my friends, enjoying some fun and good time tog. The latter wouldn't be too tough. It's the former that is the biggest challenge now. Where to find a pool to hold a party? =x I'm weighing the pros and cons for the options now. Apparently my house is too small to invite many people. HmPhH!! It's 3 weeks more to my big day. ShEesH. Thinking thinking thinking. Oh well, we'll see about it.

i miss you. do you miss me too?

weekend!

hey all...

My weekend has been a real whirlwind of activities.

It started off with me trying to bake a sponge cake which failed tragically.










Then a short swim/ suntan session with Calvin. (Thank you for accompanying me + psp)

Dinner with the Unity of Clubbers (as what Chelle calls it) at Cafe Iguana.










I really wanna put up all the food and drinks photos but the loading takes too long and my euro 08 can't wait that long! Ahahaha.

Sat- Wedding lunch banquet... =) i dn have a photo of the bride and groom omg i cant believe myself. i've got the videos only crappy me. Dinner at Sun with Moon with Yu Cong, Zhi Yang, Yilin and Freesia before heading down to Zouk to meet the love birds.





lovely orchids in Trader's Hotel! (:
Camwhoring...

Woke up this morning to hit Macs to study M9. I could barely keep my eyes open. Dinner again at Sun with Moon with my family. Seriously, i'll update the food log soon.

Euro 08, here i come!! Go Spain =D

cherri~~out~~~

<0442> YAY SPAIN!! ;)
but i feel that Germany had a better control of the game and ball play just that luck wasnt with them. What a waste really. Hmm. oh well zzz for me now gotta wake to study and salsa. Performance in sch on tues and wed. gasps! ciaos.

stop and stare.

Yes, my new oven's here! And i'm gna use it more often than ever!

Here's my first try... Butter cake!





Mixed reactions to this. But the next one will be better! =D





And a few "rock" cakes =x










Erm. yeah, stoned.

Well, it's a fortune to be able to eat. Esp when it's good delicious stuff (:

Cottage Pies serves nice nice nice stuff. Can't wait to go back for their other pastries! Oh reminds me of Big Ben's =S




Heart cheesecake.






Cinammon pastry.








My marmie's chocolate praline cake. I like the rice crispy + milk chocolate base only.



Met Yilin, Freesia and Zhi Yang tog with Jason and Calvin at Katong's Hong Kong Tea House for supper. Ooh still as pretty as ever- Yilin's gna be here till 14th July only.




See the two holes on the bun? v clever calvin- it looked like me =S

Don't ask me why.












Last sunday was my maternal grandpa's 87th birthday! Still as strong as ever! =D



Sleep deprived. I must sleep longer. ahaha.

Cherri~out

No, i know my anger management is pretty reasonable. It took alot of times for me to tell her to shut up for me to put stuff into action. Really, it was beyond my rationale thinking atm- And no, i didn't hurt anyone; i just spoilt my door fixture. It isn't really that bad you see, it took me alot to calm down yes but she was seriously taking it for granted.

Shut up- is it really alot to ask for?

I have overwhelmingly alot in my mind right now- I thought I could take everything that you said last night and be positive and act positively about it. But I'm apparently wrong. I guess I don't wanna go nowhere, don't wanna do things to no avail. I can elaborate on this but it doesn't matter. Just that losing everything sucks.

I don't wanna say anything much more cuz i'm not even supposed to be here. Except to confirm eCR. Lousy timeslots.

Shed me some light. Without trust, is there anything else to say?

The saddest thing in life to me is...

for two people who care for one another to end a relationship.

closer.

Life is a roller coaster.

I mean seriously, ups and downs- in a matter of hours. And i guess i'm too old for such a thing. I need to stabilize myself. Even a bit will do some good. I can't be in the dark guessing all the time. Shed me some light. I need to talk to you- tell me how you feel and all. I'm not as good a telepathy or reader, really. I guess you're someone whom i talk the least and that's not doing any good.

So will you give me some time- that we can just sit and talk over coffee? Like really just talk and share our thoughts? I know it's unlike ur psp or dota- full of entertainment and fun. Don't you wanna tell me how you feel and your concerns too? I'm kinda tired guessing why i made you angry. I guess it's likewise how i make you worry. We dno how each other feels and thinks simply cuz we don't tell one another.

I think fun has to die down a little. I can't be selfish and jeopardize everything in the name of fun. And maybe music too.

Tues after my test? Wed before night?

big ben's.

Big Ben's a lovely place to really just sit by the window. Situated in quiet Swan Lake Avenue, british pie seemed to be a nice savory for a quiet sad tues aftnn. I tried to appreciate all of everything. So here goes:
(Taken with my new cam T300. love my dad.)








Lovely interior.

Yummy beef and cheese












And my window seat.



Will come here more for the food. When i'm in the right mood to appreciate more of it all.

me~ out.

you're being missed.

i miss you
i really miss you
i truly really miss you

no air.

IT fair was such a bore. =( nth much to see.

Shepherd's Pie at Durty Nelly's good (: Shirley Temple (though as the expert says "it's just
7up + lime juice + grenadine syrup") is a pretty awesome change! Didn't realise how an Irish pub that i walked past sooo many times has such lovely food and ambience. Marina sq still has another pub called Paulaner for me to venture.

I love catch up sessions. Today's was made enjoyable by hongming. It's been a long time since we've met and talked. Hope you'll pick yourself back on track real fast okay, hongming? =)

I shall go find Big Ben's later if i'm not lazy hurhur. pies pies pies~ despite that, dunkin doughnuts we brought back from bkk is realy good =D hee.

I was looking through the photos we took in bkk and i really really miss bkk. absolutely.

Someone asked me "when was the last time u both told each other that u loved each other?".
Maybe you reader should answer that. cuz i feel that one should tell another ily only when you truly mean it. that's what i believe and practise (:

nitez world
cherri~out

love in the first degree.

Hello cyber world. I'm back from my maiden bkk trip on monday! But wow i'm not surprised that of the procrastination of the uploading of photos and even blogging. Partly cuz im getting really busy. and tired. lol but i'm really missing bkk now. no law and order, no parents; just free and easy and shopping and eating and sunshine and love. escapade!! anw, i'll update soon.









Till then,
xoxo cherri

Two wrongs don't make one right.

Then again...
In between my sobs and using my already malfunctioning distorted mind at that moment, i don't recall saying anything much. What did you draw from me or it all again?

Somehow at 2.50am, i'm still wide-eyed despite the day's activities and turmoils and only 3hrs of rest. It's crazy cuz i've got a whole day's worth of activities to attend to yet i'm still sitting here. I can't sleep- maybe from thinking too much.

Though i hope what i thought of were all generalizations on my part, i'm certain some are true. Deep within me, i know i can only hope time will fade the effects of it. Or maybe, only time will tell. Maybe i should just kill myself and die...

Yes, half-broken swt thing.

folly.

And there can never be a day that we'll be truly happy cuz that it will always be at the back of your head. It will always be affecting you. And the way you think, the way you see me, the way you react, the way you act. And that I'll never be good enough for you. I don't know how to make you happy, i know only how to upset or anger or frustrate you even more than your present state.

There can never be a "i wish" cuz it's my fault. And i was just being naive. And i was just bluffing myself. And i will always think it'll be my fault. And it will always be my problem. And it'll always be a shadow lurking around you. And i dno how now. And i'm lost now. And i wanna find my way back- just how?

And when there seem to be a time to be really blissful, i have to ruin it all. To tragically crush our happiness with my own hands. Giving it all up? I just wanna crash and die in an accident now. Or just jump down the building. Or maybe slit my wrist and drip to my death. Or maybe electrocute myself. Or maybe bang my head against the wall till i'm unconscious. I think walking straight into a car is the best. Yes i am suicidal- i'm announcing to the world. I wish i could turn back time. But only time will tell. cuz we all know that that will never come true.

And there'll never be a chance to be truly truly happy with you again.

just so you know

Thank you to a couple of people...

1. For being my listening ear and my pillar and for being there
2. For being my shoulder
3. For filling me in
4. For reminding me that I'm always lucky
5. For understanding

Sobbing wasn't what i had in mind. I was outta my mind to have done so, in order words. I cannot believe myself still okay. Remind me, darling, long island and AK 47 don't go tog. Beer and breezers are marginal.

Thank you for not judging me and I trust you to keep it that way. I cannot imagine how you tolerated the whole saga. But i'm really grateful that you did.