My girl.

I've got sunshine
On a cloudy day.
When it's cold outside,
I've got the month of May.

Well, I guess you'll say
What can make me feel this way?
My girl. (My girl, my girl)
Talkin' 'bout my girl. (My girl)

I've got so much honey
The bees envy me.
I've got a sweeter songThan the birds in the trees.

Well, I guess you'll say
What can make me feel this way?
My girl. (My girl, my girl)
Talkin' 'bout my girl. (My girl)

Ooooh, Hoooo.

Hey, hey, hey.
Hey, hey, hey.

I don't need no money,
Fortune or fame.
I've got all the riches, baby,
One man can claim.

Well, I guess you'll say
What can make me feel this way?
My girl. (My girl, my girl)
Talkin' 'bout my girl. (My girl)

Talkin' bout my girl.
I've got sushine on cloudy day
With my girl.
I've even got the month of May With my girl.

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i suddenly started singing this song.... well, for a lil while when im supposed to be pretty much trying to slp. cant help but wanna check out the whole lyrics you see... yay i can slp now.

xoxo,
cherri

*pouts*

I checked my results online. and now, i'm thinking very much of what is the right step to take next. Should i take an extra year to do 5, 2 subjects. Or should i just do 7 subs in one year?

I know the consequences behind both decisions. But still i'm undecided at the moment of which is the better way to go about with my academics.

I went for a jog just now and the cool weather helped me to last longer but still, i feel as bad. I've snacked qt a bit today already and i guess a swim and tan tml may probably help even more. Ultimately, i know myself better i guess. I just have to cope with more things.

I have to improve my time management alot this time round... to juggle with work, studies, family and calvin. Hmm... i gotta give it a proper think through this time around. cuz it's pretty much a make or break instance.

I did think about changing unis as well but... maybe that would be the last thing i should consider.

Sigh i cant help but sigh. My camera's not working and it's not helping either since i love to take my surroundings esp my food. Oh well. Hopefully outing with steph tml, shopping and dinner will take my mind off a little. I'm thinking of gg to butter or sth... have a drink with steph and listen music. but will see lar.

Maybe trying new recipes will help. hmm. haven't tried making sth in ages already. saw freesia's try in chocolate cheesecake. looks pretty good i must say (:

anyway, i shall go read my articles now. cant type too loudly, cuz it's distracting for the guy working behind me.

Swim and tan here i come yay.

ciaos,
cherri

Note to self

it's been an awful late night ytd. but what can i say for i found trouble myself.
i love how the thunder sounds- terrifying yet calming at the same time. For this is what i need. it's not a glamorous thing to say what happened last night but i wanna state it down to rmb. to look back. And afterall, to note to myself how ashaming i can be to myself, to those who love me, to those who care for me.

I don't want to lose someone who loves me just because of my stupor. It's not worth it.
I don't want to disappoint those who love me, esp Calvin, anymore than i have cuz it's all too silly.
I don't want to be trouble to those around me.

I wanna speak up more. I must learn to take care of myself more. I must never forget that drinking sorrows is not the best thing. And if im feeling unhappy, not to drink and club.

I must give more love care and laughter to those around me, not tears anger and disappointment.

And it's better to speak out cuz no matter how one looks, he is listening. It's better to face it than to keep it within me and drown it on drinking.

I need to grow up more. I need to be more independent and responsible.

I now know who to turn to talk as well. So, when i need to talk to someone (also means i need to speak up!!), i better turn to those who are genuinely concern.

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I've been stuck on this song for a while now... i guess it's worth a lyrics mention in my entry. i nearly teared while listening to it just now on the bus journey to town to meet alex brandon and ruth with calvin. had a gd time laughing but i know through everything, they are ppl i dn wanna trouble them everytime cuz they're a buncha nice concerned ppl. and it's not fair to them even so to have them take care of me. anw here goes...

Black Eyed Peas- Alive.

[ will.i.am ]
I got so much love
For you darlin' and i,
I wanna let you know how I feel

And its true that I love you
And it's true your the only one and I do,
I adore you
And its true girl
You make me feel alive ive ive ive 4x

[Fergie]
You said - you said - you said
That im the only one
You said that im your number 1
Now your gone and I feel numb
Tell me where do we go wrong
You are my best friend and boyfriend
Now its seems like you're my worst friend
I gotta do soul searching
Without you im a whole different person
I aint acting like I used to
I don't feel loved like I used to
It was your love I was used to
Why do I had to lo-lo-lo-lose
Your love your love your love
Your love is what it was
That have me feeling **bust**
***you are my true love***

[will.i.am]
And its true that I love you
And it's true your the only one and I do
I adore you
And its true girl

You make me feel alive ive ive ive 4x
Hey girl ur the only one
**must** be my number one
Now your gone I feel so numb
Tell me how do we go wrong
First friends then we became best-friend
You used to be my girlfriend
Now your my worst friend
Yeah I gotta do a lil soul searching
Without you im a whole different person

I don't even act like I used to
I don't even feel loved like I used to
I guess its your love that I used to
And I feel bad that I lose you
I get so many things that I wanna sa-sa-sa-sa...
I guess this mean that im missing you
Sorry for the things that I did to you
Im so lost without you

[will.i.am]
And its true that I love you
And it's true your the only one and I do,
I adore you
And its true girl

U make me feel alive ive ive ive 4x
I got so much love
...i adore u and its true girl
You make me feel alive ive ive ive 4x

[taboo]
So easy to fall in love with u
And all the things that u do
Baby girl ur so remarkable
So special, so wonderful
So special, so wonderful
So special, so wonderful

Baby girl ur so remarkable

A rainy morning...

Well, firstly i know i haven't blogged in ages- not because i don't have anything to blog but guess i'm just too lazy to. There are many pretty eventful ones but for the past weeks, i've been battling within myself what to do with changing companies that it affected my overall emotion. And that itself doesn't help very much with other stuff going on in my life.

I spent my first national day away from home. I rmb how my mom will be all excited to watch the live broadcast on the teevee and we'll all wait patiently for that 5mins- 15mins tops- firework from our windows. This year, i spent national day with calvin's family; sunday family dinner at wahiro. It's some fun to share food, talk and laugh at whatever that's being said and observed then. food's awesome, above that the company made dinner light-hearted (: sho nice!

Grocery shopping!! boo no chips for me this round cuz i was tied to his arm. once freed, i run wild at the same row only. lol!! but i like it when im stuck in this pocket, holding hands. xP

Watched sg idol later when back at his place. funny people: guy with high pitch, sg A(h)vril lavigne, all the lookalikes etc. Steph, Auntie Anne, Calvin and I had some good laughter. Ridiculous people. Can't wait to watch the next episode, honestly.

It's a public holiday today. For a monday even, it's really early to be out of bed. I woke up an hour ago and now, i can't seem to want to sleep cuz it's raining. I lied in bed, listened really hard and found that it's RAINING! Not quite a good start for those who have outdoor plans on a public hol. I love morning rains like this especially when i can slack and stay in bed. But i felt more like blogging instead of staying in bed. So here i am, in front of the com with a mug (not the stitch one, Calvin!! =0 ) typing away. I enjoy the loud pour of the rain outside, don't get me wrong cuz i do miss such days even if it woke me up.

Went to catch GI Joe on sat with melvin jaime alex and calvin at the grand cathy on sat. Very seldom do you get a 2hr movie feeling that it's only an hr and a half! Mei's house was a walk away from paragon and i din know how to go so poor alex and calvin were tugged behind. Well then, social house with the guys plus freesia and peiwen was alright. But the crowd was terrible! the place was SOo0o empty. disappointed! well, i guess the "feelings talk" went pretty fine. I really do wanna learn how to speak my feelings out. And im still learning to. Cuz sometimes when i say something really frank, it may go brutally honest and blunt it'll be as well. So technically, i'm learning how to be more tactful as well. Thank you peiwen and alex for your help. I know those long smoking sessions were sth but i dno what.

And i meant it much when i say that im glad we didn't give up learning from one another cuz in such circumstances, sometimes it's easier to just give everything up. But im not ready to. cuz you mean alot to me. and i could have let go even cuz im the one being squeezed. and i was really disheartened when jason texted me that you were not well. and you could have let go too cuz of how insensitive i was. but im truly heartened that we trashed things out and hold onto each other stronger with open minds. Once again, im sorry calvin and that we all learn from everything, big and small.

Oh yes, caught Up! with Calvin and his school friends on thurs. *points!* <- that's what the talking dog does! Darn cute! and the giant bird which loves chocolate. "good morning sir. may i assist you ... ..." the little boy is cute too hahahaha. "Will you be my prisoner please?" asked the talking dog to the giant bird. omg! Da jie went camping with janice and friends in Msia. And i miss camping. Those outdoor survival instincts. And nature. And wilderness. I wanna go outdoor cooking, rafting, pioneering etc ! Rarr rarr!!!

I wanna thank my daddy for being there for me. one liner says alot huh =x

Well then, cherri's signing off with a sore throat no matter how much i hydrate myself one hour later...
going back to bed! =P

girls.

I wish we had stayed as close as we did in sec sch days through our poly/jc days. But im glad we still have the same lingo, frequency and best of all, we laugh chat and enjoy ourselves tog! =)

Chrissy came back from Aussieland on mon. Sorry babe, i was really engrossed in getting the slippers that i wanted to get on with it all. im really glad to have you back in sg for a while at least. SUPPER on tues! =)

After much walkwalkwalk and "decisiveness", dinner at spageddies was good followed by dessert at canele. Awesome food, even more fantastic company! =D heh talk abt the bitching and sharing. YAY. love!

HMPH. Im angry with you calvin phang. spam my blog with "spam"!! "spam!!"

Some people are just anal abt it =PP

my cranberry cream bun.

Somehow somedays don't feel like others.

Sometimes, somehow you feel like you've never been there before.

Others, make you feel dejavu.

I haven't been blogging, not that there isn't anything to blog.

But it's that i just dont feel like blogging.

There aren't stuff to rant about,

There aren't events to share with.

Anyway, congrats to Calvin on getting his license on his first attempt! (:

Ecstatic i was for him, though he din really seemed on the surface.

Ice age 3 is pretty an awesome show! i enjoyed the plot and storyline. i like the characters and colours. Peaches! Been watching Resident Evil 1 and 2. haha and cal commented that luckily din watch in the cinema or i would have scared him big time. lol.

I'm supposed to be aslp abt an hour ago since i've got a full day of work at suntec convention. Then at night to celebrate melvin's bday. sheesh. dont ask me how i can tolerate. i dno. i just need to slp now. like at this moment.

Cal,

There are so many things i wanna say sometimes that no matter how random they are, i would.

And i just wanna thank you for being there for me, to cut the long story short.

I've got much in my head to think about that i think i have lower tolerance towards you. I rmb reacting pretty nasty to my sis over the phone cuz she sounded all fussed up. I guess i must control my temper abit more despite much in my mind. and a lil kinder will help too aight.

Sometimesireadthemsgesinmyhp,thinkabtandbackabtus.Alltheupsanddownsmakemefeelalot. Butwhatmakesmefeelmostfortunateis2haveyouwithme,sharingmyjoys, andsupportiveyouarewheni'mlowandthinky. I'mgladthaticanbetheretoseeyousmile,shareyourupsanddowns. Andattheendofeday,iknowicanbeabetterpersonbecauseofyou. youseldomputyourfeelingsoutfrontaswell,butihopeyoufeelthesamecuziknowwheniseeyousmile. :)

i've got nth much to type atm so goodnight world.

cherri.

Knock you down.

Heh, not again
Ohh, this ain't supposed to happen to me

Keep rockin', and keep knockin'
Whether you Louis Vuitton it up or Reebokin'
You see the hate, that they're servin' on a platter
So what we gon' have, dessert or disaster?

I never thought I'd be in love like this
When I look at you my mind goes on a trip
Then you came in, and knocked me on my face
Feels like in I'm a race
But I already won first place

I never thought I'd fall for you as hard as I did
(As hard as I did, yeah)
You got me thinkin' bout our life our house and kids, yeah
Every mornin' I look at you and smile
'Cause boy you came around and you knocked me down
Knocked me down

Sometimes love comes around
(Love comes around love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(Knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around
(Love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(Knocks you down)

I never thought I'd, hear myself say, ooh, ya'll gon' head
I think I'm gonna kick it wit my girl today, kick it wit my girl today
I used to be commander and chief
Of my pimp ship flyin' high, flyin' high)
Til I met this pretty little missile that shot me out the sky
(Oh shot me out the sky)

Hey, now I'm crashing, don't know how it happened
But I know it feels so damn good
Said if I could back, and make it happen faster
Don't you know I would baby if I could
Miss Independent, ohh, to the fullest, the load never too much
She helpin' me pull it
She shot the bullet that ended that life
I swear to you the pimp in me just died tonight
Girl sometimes love

Sometimes love comes around
(Love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(Knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around
(Love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(Knocks you down)

Tell me now can you make it past your Caspers
So we can finally fly off into NASA
You was always the cheerleader of my dreams that
Seem to only date the head of football teams
And I was the class clown that, always kept you laughin'

We, were never meant to be baby we just happen
So please, don't mess up the trick, hey young world I'm the new slick rick
They say I move too quick, but we can't let the moment pass us
Let the hourglass pass right into ashes

Let the wind blow the ash right before my glasses
So I wrote this love letter right before my classes
How could a goddess ask, someone that's only average
For advice, OMG, you listen to that bitch?
Whoa, it's me, baby this is tragic
'Cause we had it, we was magic

I was flyin', now I'm crashin'
This is bad, real bad, Michael Jackson
Now I'm mad, real mad, Joe Jackson
You should leave your boyfriend now, I'mma ask him

Say you gotta put the good with the bad, happy and the sad
So will u bring a better future than I had in the past
Oh Cause, I don't wanna make the same mistakes I did
I don't wanna fall back on my face again
Whoa, whoa, I'll admit it, I was scared to answer love's call
Whoa, whoa, and if it hits better make it worth the fall
(When it comes around)

Sometimes love comes around
(Love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(Knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around
(Love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(Knocks you down)

Won't see it coming when it happens, hey
But when it happens you're gonna feel it, let me tell you now
You see when love knocks you down

Won't see it coming when it happens
But when it happens you're gonna feel it, let me tell you now
You see when love knocks you down
Yeah

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The song's stuck in my mind after watching the mtv at calvin's place. it's so sweet. and so upbeat. it makes sense to smile while listening to it. Songs are my energy bar. They give me strength like how some people do cuz they influence you positively and you know it's good. you know it's just right to have them sink.

Sometimes you aren't the best source of positivity, but you give me strength to walk on the street and smile silly cuz i know that i can lean on you when i need someone. cuz i know that when i start my morning, i have you to smile and have you to smile back at. I appreciate them all. Thank you. and i love you, Calvin Phang <3